I woke up the next day to my alarm blaring in my ear.
"Uuuhhhhgggggg" I groaned as I forced myself out of my bed.
I took some clothes out and took a shower thinking about how I'm gonna confront Rachel. I've know Rachel since I was 10, she was my therapist and kind of a motherly figure towards me. But if she lied to me this whole time, then i don't think I would like her anymore.
~During the Appointment~
"So Avi how are you feeling?" Asked Rachel
"I feel ok I scared." I said looking straight in her eyes
"And why is that if you don't mind me asking?" Rachel asked
"I don't know, I guess it because I can feel that I'm so close to exploding that I don't what to hurt anyone. But I've already done that in that past so I'm just afraid I might do it again."I said deepening my voice with word as I go deeper into my thoughts
"Avi if you that worried, maybe I can show you some residential hospita-" she began to say but quickly got cut off
"NO!!ALRIGHT WE ALREADY TALKED ABOUT THIS!! IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE!!I yelled in her face
"Avi listen, how about you calm down and we can talk about this" Rachel said with one hand one her phone ready to call security.
"DONT TELL ME TO FUCKING CALM DOWN WHEN I,VE BEEN IS CALM!! YES I DO ADMIT THAT I DO BOTTLE UP MY FEELINGS BUT ITS FOR THE BEST!!" I Yelled at her, calming down a bit
"Avi please calm down!!" Rachel begged but was to late. I already pushed her to the ground causing her to hit her head on the ground, unfortunately for me she had already pressed the urgent alert button that called security right away.
I was ushered out of the building still pissed as hell,knowing only one thing can make me feel a bit better.
Once I got home I rush in completely ignoring the fact that Scott, Mitch, and Kevin were all there since we planned on a guys night.
"Hey Avi how was therapy?" Scott Asked cautiously
I ignored him heading straight to the fridge and cabinets looking everywhere but couldn't find it.
"Avi, you Alright there"? Asked Mitch as I still was looking for it.
"Guys I think we should leave Avi alone right now..." I heard Kevin say to the others
"Where is the alcohol in this place!!" I said lowering my voice but still pissed as hell
"Avi you don't drink in the day, what's wrong?" Mitch Asked
"Where's the alcohol?" I said ignoring Mitch
"There is none in this house". Kevin said calmly still upset about Avi's behaviour
"Well then I'm out, see ya when I get back." I said stomping out and getting an Uber knowing that I'm not driving home.
As soon as I was at the bar I ordered unlimited drinks and drank my pain away, shooing off every girl and guy coming up to me. I stay there for about 9 hours with the bartender giving me water every 3 drinks, soon enough I've emptied 3 large bottles of Vodka and drunk off my ass. Still I continue drinking not caring about the massive hangover I'm gonna have tomorrow.
"Hey dude, the place is closing and you need to leave. Let me call you a Lift." Said the young bartender.
I can only nod since I'm too drunk to do anything else. I man walks to the car and gives me a bottle of water thinking that I was gonna drink it. My drunken self gave the driver the directions to my place and stubbled out of the car. Seeing that I couldn't walk one foot in front of me, the driver got out of the car and walked me into the building and to my apartment door. From there he went back to the car and drove off leaving me to go inside.
When I got inside, the first thing I did was head to the bathroom to find a razor. Guess it's middle school all over again. I tied a piece of fabric I found around my arms so that I wouldn't bleed as much. Damn, for someone who is completely shitfaced I am a very smart person. I then put the cold silver blade on my arm and pressed down.
"Fuck! I never remembered it hurting this much!" I yelled in pain
After about two more cuts on each arm, I get cleaned up and change into my black dragon onesie. Then I ordered some more alcohol to ease the pain in my arm and started my Hobbit marathon. Until I passed out.
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The Dragon Within
FanfictionOne of Avi biggest fears is that he will seriously hurt the ones that he loves most. You see, on the outside Avi might be that lovable adorable dork we know and loved. But everyone has their demons, his just happens to be his mental health. On the i...
