second thoughts

February 2020

Now February has started and I'm closer to adulthood, but I don't care about that right now. I've emotionally distanced myself from the world and decided to do what I love to do. Listening to music is nice but writing it is even nicer. I'm taking it really seriously. I'm learning music software here. I'm getting some really disturbing crap from my past. They're turning into nightmares actually. It's so fucking scary how an action can haunt a person even up the present day. What the fuck. The worse part is, I can't do anything about it. Regarding relevant shit, people here are panic buying masks because of the coronavirus. That's okay and I believe we should ban flights from China and all. But we shouldn't include race here. The biggest misconception here is that they see a country as what the government's reputation is. For me, I do not like the Chinese government but I do not hate the Chinese people. There are good and bad in everything. Let's just say the world is closer to being really shit now. But anyways, I'd like to live so lessen your carbon footprint so that the environment can live. 

Less than a week, it's gonna be March. There are days just like this day that you feel rather empty and ponder really what it means to have a good relationship before and to lose it like nothing happened. I sometimes wish humans weren't able to remember, like a kill switch of some sorts. But fuck that. But not really.