because of u. choi san [✓]

chapter 14, you

“hey,” yunho puts his hand on top of san's shoulder, who didn't even budge as he was busy crying infront of the craved stone infront of him.

yunho looked at him for a few seconds before handing him the blue letter, the one minju told yunho to give him once he found out who she was, “this is for you.”

san looked up slowly at the blue letter, taking it as he stood up, then looked at minju's grave one last time before walking away not bothering to say a word to yunho.

as san arrived home, he quickly locked himself in his room and sat on his desk, all the letters that ju had gave him were all there. he then puts the sixth blue colored letter next to the fifth one, contemplating to whether he should read it now or not.

frustrated, he opened the first one and reads them.

letter 1 ♡

hi sannie!

gahh this is the first time i have ever written a letter to anyone so i don't really know how it works ):

i just wanted to say that you really matter to me, so i hope the best for you

sorry not long i really don't know how to write )):

ps; you're a cutie

letter 2 ♡

sannie??

i love how you're the reason why i'm happy and the reason why i'm hurt as well.

i hope you realised that the girl you always pick on is me; ju. han minju. the girl you told that you'll always be there for her.

nevertheless, i still found myself craving for your attention on social media.

letter 3 <3

dear sannie,

i want to tell you who i really am, i'm really tired of you laughing about me with those friends of yours. i'm so glad yunho stopped, but i don't want him. i want you.

but, if i tell you who i am, will you still be friends with me? i don't think so.

i think i'm falling in love with you eventhough i know i shouldn't. it hurts.

letter 4 < 3

san,

please listen to yunho.

stop it for once, i beg you.

i'm growing tired.

i love you.

letter 5 </3

i love you.

san sobbed, regrets, guilt filled over his body, he hates himself. he's blaming himself.

he gather all his strengths to read the last letter, scared of what it might contain.

letter 6 <//3

hi san,

by the time you read this letter i'm already gone.

i'm so sorry i couldn't keep my promise, i'm so sorry for leaving you when i said i wouldn't. i'm so sorry for lying to you, not telling you who i really am. really i'm just sorry about everything.

you really were my happiness and i couldn't thank you much for making me happy when no one else can. i'm so glad i met you, so glad destiny has brought you to me.

at the same time, i hate the fact that i met you. i hate how you treat me, hate how you pick on me, hate how you laugh and point fingers with your friends at me. i don't hate you. i want to hate you, but i can't. i love you. i really do, i hate myself for falling for you.

hate how because you make me laugh and smile through social media, i fell for you.

please, i hope you change for the best.

i'm sorry.

and for once, listen to yunho and say thank you to him, for being there and for helping me. for changing. hug him for me?

thank you, choi san. i will be watching you from above, behave well yeah? i love you ♡

two more chapters.