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That Feeling Inside
As If I'm slowly dying
I don't know,maybe it's me lost in my thoughts once again as we drive to our destination..
Driving and my head feels dizzy as if I'm getting ready to pass out but maybe thats just me being dramatic as they all say..
BREATH.
Don't forget to breath I have to keep reminding myself as I feel my eyes drop lower and lower slowly slipping away..I'm trying to grab on to reality and open my eyes but it's just something holding me back..
BREATH.
Why aren't I breathing..why does my breath get stuck in my throat..feels as if a rock is stuck and I'm slowly drowning..
Look out the windows and you see the beautiful sky as every thing slowly falls on you..
Ugh yeah that's that feeling I'm used to..
Somethings in the sky that I've been searching for but I can't seem to lay my eyes on it but I know it's looking down upon me..maybe a little disappointed by my actions.
BREATH.
Just Breath Mi Amor..
Take a deep breath in then let it out and calm down.
I close my eyes and can't seem to escape those random thoughts running around in my head..my dear old friend depression just hanging around not letting go..waits until I get extremely happy and at peace with myself to show herself and that it's not gone and she was indeed just hiding for a little..hibernating in my cold heart..
You know as you sit down in that car seat no words leaving your lips
BREATH
You take a breath in then let it go as you feel that tug pull on your heart as if your heart is getting ready to go flat..no doctor can fix this feeling in your chest it's just there because your messed up..
Let go and move forward..
Let go of what though? What are you holding back..is it that breath you've been keeping captive inside of your throat because your afraid to let what you have to say be heard.. your afraid of the overall out come but you have to let go
BREATH.
Stop Forgetting To Inhale And Exhale
Find yourself and hold on tight because this has been and will be a rough ride down the path called the life you were born to live..
Love?
What is that?am I loved? Do I know how to love? Will I fall in love? Do I trust love? Is it for me? Where is it?

I'm Fine Just Rambling On About Nothing✍🏾🥀🖤