Incubus

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After that date, I realized I have a lot of things I keep from Thomas. The longer I thought about it the more I was certain that this was not a good base for a relationship. I debated with myself if it was worth it to tell him everything but I couldn't decide to 100% so I decided to do what I always do when I am lost about being what I am: Call my parents and ask for advice. I knew that I would get a lot of shit from them first but I didn't expect that.

"You fucking did what?", my dad yells at me through the phone. I am shocked. Dad never yells. Right now I am so happy that I am not talking to them in person. They would probably strangle me. "Are you insane? How careless of you. What if he tells anyone?"

"He won't", I interrupt my dad, "He knows for over a week now and didn't tell anyone."

"That doesn't mean he isn't planning to do it", my mom says.

"He won't", I repeat, "But this is not the actual issue I need advice on."

"No, we will not just dismiss that. You have to come to your senses", my dad persists. And here I was hoping I would go over this fast.

"Well, if you want to talk about it so bad, why not ask him directly", I shove the phone over to Mick. Mick had been curious about my parents and I allowed him to listen to the conversation. Now it proves to be a good thing I did that.

"No, he shouldn't know any more than you already told him", my mom says and I mouth a little 'Ups' toward Mick.

"Too late, he is already sitting beside me and you are on speakerphone." From the other end of the line, we hear a bang then it falls silent. Mick and I exchange looks both of us clueless on what to do next. Then Mick leans forward.

"Good morning Mr. and Mrs. May", he says but my parents stay quiet. "I promise I won't tell anyone anything. I know this is a big responsibility but I am happy your son told me. We are closer than ever and I understand myself considerably better now." Way to go Mick. Nice speech. Where did he learn to speak this elaborate?

"Hi Mick", my mom finally says, "that is nice that you understand that this is not something you can just carry around lightly. It is a big secret you have to keep."

"Of course ma'am", Mick replies.

"Call me Kate."

"Dad are you not going to say anything", I ask.

"Your dad left the room. I will talk with him later just", I hear her take a deep breath, "just don't tell anyone else."

'Shit'

"Mom, actually that is what I wanted to talk to you guys about."

"No no one else", she says firmly.

"Not even if it could be the love of my life?", I say exaggerating a little bit.

"What do you mean?", there is a hint of interest in her voice. I had been hoping for more but I have to work with what I get.

"You remember the guy I was telling you about, the guy I always lose control with? And dad told you about the theory I have why this is happening?" Mick is looking at me confused. I just give him a sign that I will explain it to him later.

"Yes", is all I get from my mom.

"Well, I still don't know if the theory is correct but I am in control most of the time. We went on a few dates and I really like him. I don't want to start a relationship with him while I keep lying to him."

"Koda, I understand but I don't think this is a good idea."

"Mom just think about you had to keep what you are from dad. You would go crazy", I try to convince her. At this point, I ask myself why I am even asking for their permission. I told Mick without them knowing and they can't stop me from telling Thomas. Maybe convincing them will give me the confidence to actually do it because I am not sure if it is the best decision myself.