Confessions Of A Drug Dealer Husband

Chapter 33

Miguel P.O.V
I Have To Get Out This School, I Just Can't Do This. You Might Think I'm Crazy But Let Take It Back To When It All Starting....

FlashBack
You See I Had A Hard Life, Once Upon A Time I Used To Have A Big Happy Family, Mom Dad And Me. We Used To Have A White House With A Get Big Backyard, I Was Spoiled To The Fullest, Everything Seem To Be Going Good....Until Daddy Lost His Job, Bills Piled Up, Lights Were Turn Off, Eviction Notices After Eviction To The Point We Move Out Into A Small Condo...It Was Small But It Was All We Could Manage... One Night After Stay In The Condo For Two Months, I Smell Smoke, I Jumped Up And Stumble To The Kitchen To See The Whole kitchen In Flames, The Smoke Detector With Off As The Flames Grew Bigger, By This Time Mom And Dad Were Up And About, We Made Are Way Outside As Daddy Dialing 911 While Mommy Sat And Held Me Close And Just Cry.....We Sat There As We Watches As Our Condo Burn Down....We Lost Everything, We Stay At My Grandma House For Awhile Until Daddy Found A Apartment, We Went To Salvation Army And Got Clothes, A Bed And Little Small Simple Things To Get Us Up. Daddy Found And Job As A GarbageMan And Mommy Was Working The Night Shift At The ER. I Stay In School
and Join The Football Team, I Was Pretty Good, I Always Keep My Faith And My Head Up Even When Things Went Bad... I Came Home One Day To See Mom Bags Pack. I Asked Her Where Was She Going And She Told Me She Was Going On Vacation, She Took My Hands And Pull Out A Small Red Box, She Told Me To Open It And I Pulled Out A Charm Bracelet With "Forever My Baby Boy" Engraved In It.... She Had Tears Rolling Down Her Face And I Hugged Her And Told Her I See Her Soon... she Kissed My Cheek And Grab Her Bags And Walked Out The Door.....That Was The Last Time I Saw Her, I Was Only 13 When She Walked Out.... My Dad Cry Everyday, His Heart And Soul Was Just Broken... But Still I Did FootBall And Kept My Grades Up And Still Had Faith... My Eighth Grade Year Change My Teen Years Drastically.
My Daddy Had A Friend Name Junie And For All My Childhood, He Was Like A Second Dad To Me, Whatever My Father Couldn't Get Me, Junie Got It For Me...But Junie Had A Bad Side He Was An Alcoholic And A Drunk, But On This Night My Life Change
My Dad Was Off Visiting His Grandmother Who Was In The Hospital And He Left Me With Junie. I Sat InFront Of The The TV As Junie Sat On The Couch Drinking. He Finished His Last Beer And Dropped It On The Floor, I Jumped As The Glass Broke On The Floor... he Stare At Me As I Backed Up Off The Floor... he Started Walking Toward Me And I Saw Something Strange In His... I Made A Ran For The Bathroom But He Grabbed Me And Wrestle Me To The Ground... I Try To Fight Back But He Was Too Strong, He Wrapped Me In A Headlock And Drag Me To His Bedroom, He Threw Me On The Bed And Whispers In My Ear
"You Look Just Like Your Mother" As He Said As He Pull Down His And Mines... I Told Him Please Stop But It Just Seem To Turn Him On Even More. As He Entered Me, It Felt Like My Whole Body Ripped In Half... My Screams And His Moans Echo Through The House...It Seem Like Forever He Was Stroking Inside Me And Finally He Yelled And Erupted Inside Me....He Cleaned His Self Up And Left Me On The Bed To Cry....I Wasn't Crying Because, In Some Sick Way I Enjoy It...I Told My Father What Happen And He Beat The Shit Out Of Him And Got Him Arrested

Ever Since That Day, I Was Always Confused With My Sexuality, I Didn't Know If I Like Boys Or Girls...But The Ending Of Eighth I Realized I Like Both...I Was Ashamed Of It Because This Is All Junie Fault..That Day Has Made Me What I'm Today.... My Emotions For Darren Are Getting Stronger By The Day....And I Just Don't Know What To Do.
As I Get Into My Car, I Just Drove And Drove, Never Once Looking Back