Joke
That's what most of people think about me.
Just because I have this smile over my face doesn't mean that I'm happy.
I just woke up telling me that everything it's gonna be okay, that it will be my day, that maybe I can be free of all this accumulated pain I want to hide.
Because if I break
I will be weak
And I don't want that!
I don't want that the people judge me for no reason. I wouldn't like to go back to those days.
Practically everybody see me like something that doesn't matter, that you can laugh about.
And that hurts
Even more when it's your family
Or near friends
I just want to stop this, I don't wanna still containing this tears, biting my lip until it starts to bleed. It's insane!
Why the destiny wants to make me suffer all this. Is it funny?
Tell me! So maybe I can laugh with you.
And then
When that happened
I will see why nobody treat me as a nobody
