she's everything i couldn't be ✨

the beach

it was 11:47 am and I was bored. I decided to call Payton as we haven't talked in a few days and I missed him. He knows about my struggles here at the house and he listens to me. I really do appreciate him more than anything.

"HIIII PAYTTONNN" I say as he answers. "OMG OLIVIA, whats uppp" he says with a girly undertone. "Apparently we're heading to the beach, smush smushhhh" I laugh. Smush smush is our code word for "there's gonna be kissies, and I'm not here for it" we use that word a lot. "I wish I was there, ANYWAY, I've written two new songsss, wanna here em?" Payton asks me. "Okay okay, I think I got time" I say as I close my door. He plays me a song called "Love Letter to Myself" & "I don't know you anymore" pretty bomb songs. We talked for another half an hour before he needed to go.

Anthony came in a few minutes later and gave me a flower. it was light pink with yellow on the inside. "For you" he said before giving it to me. "Thank you, but why?" I asked him. "Reminded me of you" he answered. "Aw, thank you"

I put the flower in my hair, changed outfits and went to the beach with the "gang"

I was sitting in the back with Nick & Dixie. Charli and Chase in the front. I think Dixie & Nick were flirting with eachother, but subtly. I was scrolling through tik tok, I was so bored and just wanted to get out of the car. badly. I was just being ignored or whatever. Not that I was trying to join in. I just wanted to go home