Holding On And Letting Go

It'ѕ Everything Yoυ Wanted And Everything Yoυ Don't

"Is anybody out there?" He said while tears start to flow... It's torturing him. I can see it. Everything he had done just to save them, he sacrifice himself just for them.

"Is anybody listening?" I'm listening. Let it out. It's everything you wanted Kris, and now that you got it. You need to Go. that's the exchange of everything you done to save them. Everything you wanted is now done but everything you don't is now coming back at you. 

"Does anybody really know?" No. Only me. No one knows what happened really. You need to let go. Holding on is really not working for you Kris, But letting go is.

"If it’s the end of our beginning, A cry, A rush, From one breath Is all we’re waiting for Sometimes the one we’re taking Changes every one before." You can Do it Kris, I know you can. You've done so many things for them you have encounter many trials and I know right now, you can do it. It's hard but I know you can do it.

"It's everything you wanted, it's everything you don't, It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed, Some prayers find an answer, Some prayers never know...," After he sang those lyrics he stopped for a while, then he cried out loud. It's hurting me seeing him cry like this. i closed my eyes and continued what Kris stopped. "We're holding on and letting go"

He looked at me. He was in great shock when he saw me. I smiled at him and sat beside him. He was still looking at me.

"What are you doing here Jessica?" He asked me. I only smiled at him. I sitted beside him. I closed my eyes for a couple of minutes then i open it again and i saw Kris looking at me. His eyes were full of sadness, regrets and anger.

Then i saw myself in his eyes. My life is ruin, my dreams crashed. Why can't i continue where i stop? Why can we? We started it, why can't we continue? Masakit man isipin pero, why? Dammit! Tears start to flow as I gripped my shirt to stop those hics coming from my mouth. Then i felt a warm hug...., Kris... I felt some water in my shoulder and it hit e...., the both of us are crying.

"Kris, ba't ganun? ang hirap makamove one, ang daling-dali sabihin pero hindi natin kaya. bakit ganun?" sabi ko and i gripped his shirt while we are still hugging each other. Damn you! 

"Sssshhhh. Tahana, malay mo there's a future ahead of us? Why don't we just move on and continue where we are now starting?" sabi nya, at niyakap nya ako ng  mahigpit.

 Kris..., you're letting go so easily. It's not you. They're.... manipulating us, they're treating us like some dolls! We are human too! We are no dolls, but we are human..., We love, we feel hurt... We are humans.... But they don't treat us like that. Life is so unfair. Buhay nga naman parang life...

"Jessica?" Kris said my name and I looked at him..., He's smiling...? How can he? Wait, I shouldn't have judge him first... I'm right, he's strong. He can't let himself get down. Now I know we can still do it. Letting Go is our first option and now I--We choose facing everything. Facing what's ahead and making it right then going back to the past...,

We shouldn't be here right now. Dapat....

"Nasa Battlefield tayo." Kris said. He continued what i was about to say on my mind. Silly me..., Loving him was my right choice but letting him go isn't.

"Yeah... " I smiled at him, little did I know--nah.. I stood up and he was staring at me, i smiled at him at lend him my hand.

"Let's Go?" I asked him while still smiling.

"Where?" He asked me with a little confusion on his handsome and long face. Pft, just kidding. Well, talking about that look who's talking like I don't have a long chin. Psh, silly me.

"In the battlefield" I replied to him and he slowly took my hand and stood up.

"Let's go"

We choose both, Holding to the memory and letting go that nightmare and making a new future for the both of us.

"What about them?" I asked him.

"I have a plan, don't worry, I'll come back to them." and he kissed me.

I smile knowingly he laugh at me.

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Sorry kung boring talaga ha? -3-