Todoroki Imagines

Doubts

A loud thud wakes you up and your eyes take a moment to adjust to the darkness of the place you're in right now – as you come to, you realize you're inside your closet and that you're trying once and for all to prove your suspicions right or wrong. Your neck hurts from the position you've been in for a while now, but it's pushed to the back of your mind as you hear voices outside and you peek through a little crack that lets the light of the room in.

"We won't get caught," you hear him say; "we'll be alone for a while."

Your heart can't break, how could it? You've been noticing some signs for about three months but you were too scared to act upon your fears; getting home late, not enough attention given to you, even late messages he got when he swore you were already asleep. You blamed yourself however, thinking that you were not enough for him or that there was something you simply could not provide to make him happy, but as you talked about it with one of your closest friends one day you realized that you most likely had nothing to do with it. After four years of being together you were afraid that the relationship would wear down, but even so you knew it wasn't your fault everything was falling down.

They walk in, bodies glued to one another and mouths kissing as if there was no tomorrow, and soon they fall on the bed – your bed. You can't see her face but you recognize the long black hair that's styled in her usual ponytail. "What did you tell them?" Momo says as she breaks the kiss only for Shouto's lips to latch onto her neck, making her moan while his hands roam her sides.

"That I'd be at Midoriya's. They're at their mom's until tomorrow night so it's okay for you to stay if you want." His voice is low and sultry as he says this, and it only serves to break you further down. Is this truly the Todoroki that professed eternal love to you? The one who had once said he'd love to have a family with you? Is this really the man that you gave your all to? All of these questions round your mind as you watch the scene unfolding right outside, and while you know you should be doing something your body seems unresponsive. You can't do anything but stare. "Fuck, you're always so good for me."

Endless praises come out of both their lips, and with tears falling down your face you half-expect this all to be a sick joke, but when his gaze suddenly poses upon yours (perhaps unknowingly) you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders as he smiles just lightly before taking off the other girl's top and moving his hands toward her clothed breasts. You cover your ears to try to make the noises disappear, and just when you see him taking her bra off as well you let out a loud shout that makes everything turn dark.

It only takes you a moment to realize you're on your bed, lying down and panting as if you had just run a marathon. Quickly sitting up and touching your face you notice the ever present wetness that was common for you, and you turn around and confirm that it had been all but a dream as you see Todoroki's peacefully sleeping figure next to you with his face buried on his pillow and his hair as messy as it could be, red strands mixing with white and creating strange shapes.

You sigh and plop down, both hands covering your face and ready to try and sleep again when you hear his voice. "Was it a nightmare?" is the only thing he asks, and you hum a low 'yes' – you think he'll end it there but his right arm wraps around you and brings you closer to him, the familiar warmth soon spreading to your body as you lay your head on his chest. "You have a bad habit of mumbling while dreaming," he says as he places a soft kiss on the top of your head, and you know he's smiling. "Was it really about me cheating on you? Is there really such a thing in your mind?"

"I'm just worried," you're quick to reply before he can say anything else. It hurts, but you've waited long enough and now he knows how you feel. "I don't want us to disappear, you know? You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, but I can't help but feel like you're growing distant to me. I don't really think there's another one but -"

"No buts," he cuts you off and tightens his hold just a bit; you can feel his fast heartbeat and wonder if it's still for you. "We'll talk about this better in the morning, but you need to know that you're still the one I want to be with for the rest of my life. I might be shitty at showing it, but you're still the light of my days and the one that will become my spouse in the near future. I love you, and I wouldn't have the world if it meant not having you in it."

His words are sweet and to the point, almost as if he had planned to say all that, and you can't help but believe and swallow them as they come. Pulling away and looking into his eyes, you search for any signs of lying but you find only honesty and loyalty, and those make your own heart jump. "I..." you start, tears building back, "I love you so much, Shouto. I don't know what I'd do if I lost you." He lets out a content sigh and brings you to him once more, and this time you know he intends to keep it that way until you both wake up hours later. You miss the way he smiles gently at you or how he looks at you as if a million universes are held within your form, but it doesn't matter.

You'll be able to see that once morning comes.