Unhinged My Soul

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Sunshine torn from the curtain, making me turn the other side to take comfort, but the light wasn’t going anywhere, I wanted to cursed, but the warmth of sunlight, sooth my bare muscles, in the same time it was waking me up from the last night dream, I tried to stretch my hand to find the same warmth as sunlight, but the next place to me was empty, he was gone, like the darkness vanish away because of sunlight. I wanted to smile, but I can’t I missed that warmth even I am sure it is not long time that it was missing. The place of his side is still warm from his heat; I rub the sheets and sigh. Indeed it was still warm. A smile started to appear on my lazy mouth, I touch my own mouth, let’s think how many time I used it last night.. hmm.. I don’t have any idea.. haha.. I wish it didn’t got damage, okay I amend my sentence, just one..hmmm.. Two cuts okay.. I chewed my bottom lip and the night came rushing toward me, like a thunder cause my already warm skin to shiver. I took a long breathe to smooth my nerves and the aroma of soft but strong coffee mix with some exotic smell made me open my eyes, but the strong sunlight made it hard to open it, as soon I closed my eyes and sat on the bed. I rubbed my eyes from the back of my hand and move toward the aroma, my body protest due to the extra usage, but it was pleasure too. I wanted to laugh on myself, does I am acting desperate? If yes too, I don’t care.. I wanted to be desperate for him. I opened my eyes to see the sun again, it was making a great hue of rainbow on the crystal of window, making it spark like diamond, I grab the sheet and cover up my body and with a smile took the hot cup of coffee and a rose, yeah, of course, rose.. my favourite… I took a sip and went to the window to welcome the new day new life.

If you ask me what was my plan 3 months ago, I would have tell you, nothing much, to get my degree, get a good job, and after 10 years get married or try to and have at least 4 to 5 kids and live happily ever after.. Happily ever after?? Okay I amend again, happily ever after was not in my dictionary, as I never believed in love or any such emotion, I was different, but now, I believe in happily ever after, I want to create my own happily ever after.. I took one more sip of my coffee; the warmth of it welcomes to my system and sooth all the muscles, all the worries.. the door knob turned made me turn around, I know who was he, so I waited till he enter the room, I smile, big as he like and small as he wanted,  I wanted to live completely like he wanted me too, I am so changed. I wonder if this is some dream or what??

The knob turned and the person come in the room, but the smile of my slipped immediately, he was not what I thought, he was someone else, he was dark, like a shadow, he was big like a giant, he was carrying something in his hand, I clenched my sheet more to me, but it was not there, i turned around to try to escape, but suddenly everything around me changed, I was no longer in the bright room, with last night memory, I was in some dark room, with no sunlight, just a small bulb on ceiling making the room glow in dirty yellow colour, and the only escape route is from where he came from, two more man came from behind him, having a loaded guns in their hands, I wanted to scream but nothing is coming out of my throat, it was sore, and I am thirsty. I wanted to escape, but my legs are tied with rope and hands are with cliffs. The man came closer to me, I can feel his breath over my face, I was mixed with alcohol and some other sort of things, I don’t know what but I wanted to puke, but I was unable to control the shiver I wanted something, I don’t know what.

You woke up? He asked but I didn’t reply.

Hmmm.. he hump again and stretch his hand to his back, the person with the gun put something in his hand which I was unable to see, he smile when I tried to pull my head from his grip, his dirty yellow teeth with black outline came into my view and I wanted to throw again.

You should be sleeping gal: he said and I felt the ping of needle inside my hand and before I can protest the white glow took the sadness and darkness away from me.

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Advil you are back? I asked the shadow and the glow faded making his feature prominent, he tosses his hair from his forehead, and smile toward me.

Sleepy head: he said and with one strand come toward me: hope you had a nice sleep? He asked with the same smile on his face.

Not long but peaceful:  I teased.

Hmmm… he hump and kiss me tenderly