SECRETS

•|Chapter 1

Everything is recycled, or so that is what I see with these eyes. The atoms of one thing become those of another. The energy from one place becomes energy in another. So while I have no idea where you are, or what God asked you to become next, I'm looking forward to being with you again and I feel your love so strongly in the ether

It was only in the stillness of the late evening that I could hear her calling my name. I would walk to the seafront and gaze out at the waves.

The ocean moved and the wind blew, but to me everything had stopped. I no longer heard the traffic or noticed other walkers. To me they were as if in a photograph - two dimensional and static. In that extended moment my mind became at peace. She was not gone - just out of reach for now.

A full mont after her passing the mourning had not run it's course. The heaviness was my limbs as much as my mind. Things I used to find funny now only caused a deepening of the pain.

She should be making his espressos in that damn expensive machine and complaining about the price of eggs. She should be gawping at pictures of fast cars on the internet and planning what to spend his future lottery winnings on. She should be gossiping about the people she worked with worse than an old woman to mom

But most of all she should be there to hug her goodnight and kiss her before she went to bed . I missed all that. Now there was just a graveyard, a stone that bore her name and her cold bones beneath the soil.

I had always been agnostic, but now I put all my faith in God to care for her and keep her on peace wherever she is .

"Dinner's in five " my mom - Eleanor said as she held both my hands and gave me the biggest hug ever . I felt drops of tears running through her face

"She's gone mom, she ain't coming back " I said whispering into her ears as I wiped tears off her face. My mom spotted a picture from Charlotte's dresser , she left my hands and went towards it as she picked it up and hugged it

"You both were still young girls..... and best friends " we both starred at each other for a while

"Can we not talk about this right now, besides we do not want to keep Dad waiting "I said

My Mom agreed with me and we left for the dinning table, before I left Charlotte's room something surprising caught my sight; there was an old carton that said "Keep out " , it was filled with CD's and a portable DVD player .

I didn't want to overlook it so I decided to open it up , each CD were divided into parts. I took out the first CD and inserted it into the DVD player, and then....

CHARLOTTE

I see you've found my tapes and you might be probably wondering how and why I did this , I ended my life miserably and I decided to share it to who ever is receiving this tape and probably help me plot my revenge on them too

Life is full of ups and downs , you might never know when the next arrow will hit you like it hit me unaware

It all started at the Richard's house during our annual dinner date . Hayes ;the first Richard's son had just returned from college

"So Hayes how was your stay in London? I heard you rode on a highly prestigious carriage with a Royal , tell me all about it " My dad - Timothy, said

"You're very much correct Sir , my friends and I rode on a carriage with a Royal and it was very exciting ,we also went to fun and interesting places too" I rolled my eye balls at him as he began to brag over what's not

"We have lots of fun and interesting places here too in Kernville , besides going to London is nothing to brag about " I said to him

"Charlotte! Mind your manner of approach " my mom snapped at me

"It's alright Eleanor , we all know that Charlotte and Hayes haven't been best of friends ever since they were little " Gregg; Hayes father said

"It would wake the dead if I had to be a friend to you Charlotte " Hayes said

"You do realize it takes me nothing to make you "the dead" " I said hitting the table knife on the dinning table

"Charlotte enough! " My father yelled at me "Get up and clear the table now! " and so I did

"Er Charlotte could you get me a glass if water , please? " Hayes said demanding like I was his personal servant or something, I had no choice than to give him his stupid glass of water

Later, Hayes began to cough heavily , at first it seemed like a joke but sooner he began to cough out blood . He nearly coughed out his guts

"Someone please do something " His mom; Jackie panicked

"Let me get him a glass of water " I said , Hayes had already died before I brought the glass of water.

CLAIRE

"Claire! Claire!! Claire!!! Your food's gonna get cold " my mom yelled

"I'll be down in a sec " I said