Lonely love

The beginning

    I wake up to a loud beeping noise, it was so irritating. I yawn and try to find my alarm button, after several tries I finally succeeded to press that freaking button! Angrily, I try to find peace in today by hearing birds chirp or I dunno,hearing my mom play freaking flute at 6:45 am?! I try to calm myself down through all the terrible off pitch tune, and fail. My mom gets the memo that I'm upset by hearing loud growl of,Cranky Casey as they call me.

   I grab my phone and see a text from my boyfriend Max, he knows how cranky I get in the morning I get. So, he sends me a sweet message like,

     You good? I know I'm not at least not without you!

   I knew he would say something like that, it's just so...so Max! I look over at the picture I have of him with his blonde hair and beautiful chocolate eyes, and smile, and I think to myself I must be the luckiest girl in the world! Then I hear my mom playing the flute loudly when it's meant to be A instead of the G she's playing. I yell impulsively "MOM SHUT UP IT'S  SATURDAY!"  Then my mom quiets down I begin to feel bad, I mean I know it's hard she's a single mom and dads gone....I should be more fair. But, that's why we have therapy right?

   I turn on the tv in my room, and decide to watch a sad movie so I'll feel an emotion other than anger. I chose a dog's purpose and, surprisingly I only cried once, that's a record! Other than that one time I watched a movie with mom, but I wasn't counting....hmm oh well! I thought to myself.

   I slept for awhile, actually a long while because I slept for the whole day. At least I had a lot of energy for Sunday that come to think of it, it was energy I didn't even need!

   Same thing happened Sunday, except I ate at least six maybe, seven bean and cheese burritos , until my mom told me I ate to much which I believed was fair in that scenario.

~Next day~

My mom knows how pissed off I get during weekday when my alarm goes off so, my mom comes upstairs. She gently shakes my arm and I tiredly pushed her away, even though I enjoyed the nice light and calm touch "Casey, it's time to get up. Can you come down after your dressed for breakfast please?" My mom said gently. I love my mom's voice, it's sweet and gentle. It feels supportive and kind. Before my mom left, she grabbed my arm softly and gently smiled. Her smile! Sometimes it feels like I'm a bad teen for treating my mom the way I do. I know I'm not but, I end my train of thought and grab a black and red croptop with some black pant. I also grab a chain necklace.

I go downstairs and my mom greets me with a smile. I see my mom cooked me some over easy eggs with buttered toast. It tasted so good. "Thanks mom! I'm headed out!"I exclaimed. "Ok, be careful on your way to the bus stop!" "Ok will do!" I race out the door running but, I'm really good and athletic so since I was running late, I caught the bus right on the nick of time. I knew that Max would be on the bus at the next stop. The bus view wasn't great but, since the school was on top of a mountain the view up the mountain was still great.

         Once Max got on the bus he didn't talk to me, I tried to catch his attention but he hung out with the popular girl Jessica. He knows I HATE her!