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My Unattainable

I would just like to hold you, but that's impossible now. You are set on your path, so focused that I doubt you have noticed I've fallen too far behind. You are soaring with the angels, and I am here, stuck on the ground, my wings broken from crashing into the sea, my lungs too full with water that I doubt I'll ever breathe. It was all too soon when the waves left. They left me lonely on this rocky beach, left me lonely to watch you soar and left me lonely to weep. You, you are worse than the waves, you are worse than the sea. You are the reason I can't get rid of the insatiable cold, this stupid chill. I don't think the sun will ever shine on me again. Not with your shadow casting over me.

You are the sun and the moon and all the stars, and I am a dust you can hardly see. I once made a mighty mountain, one so high that none dared to climb. There was none that could compare to me. The tide worshipped my base, the clouds dressed me but you were the only one that could see me. Every morning when your rays peeked over the horizon, I could feel your adoration. I could feel your glare at mid-morning. I could feel your hesitation at every dusk, just before you exploded over the sky. There you lay in all your glory, the moon your wounded heart, the stars your every imperfection. There you lay for everyone to judge. Soon all the attention you gave me was fleeting. Your glare became glazed, your hesitation became retreating. It's like you couldn't bear the sight of me any longer. Your wounded heart became your shield, and your imperfections became your blinding beauty. Without you, the tide ripped at my flesh, grounded me to dirt, revealing my empty inside. The clouds covered me thick till no one could see me. Not even your light could penetrate my thick covering. Then one day, all that was left was of was a thin layer of dust.

I use to stand tall, and now I can barely look in the mirror. You left me on this lonely rock, you left to watch you soar high above, and you left me a disgrace. You, you are my worst enemy. You are the reason I can't breathe this toxic air, can't fill my choking lungs. I can't bear the warmth you once provided. Not without your presence. You left me broken and left me so I could see without your guidance. Now you are my sun, moon and sky.

You are my unattainable.