Same Wavelength | d.t.

chapter one | NYLA

I can't even begin to describe the nervousness and aching knot in my stomach as I'm landing into the LAX Airport. So many reasons why moving to Los Angeles is a bad idea are going through my head, but I try my best to push those thoughts out.

'Cause that's what being a normal fucking teen is, taking stupid risks that you have no idea how they're going to turn out, but you do it anyway. In the end you just gotta say 'fuck it' and throw it in the 'fuck it bucket' and go along with your life.

So that's what I'm doing, moving to LA with nothing but a few million subscribers and a few thousand dollars.

Nothing can go wrong, right?

Well nothing but just about everything.

Oh god, what the fuck did I get myself into?

I'm currently in the airport bathroom with my luggage recovering from a mental breakdown and getting ready to head to my car that I left in the parking lot from last visit when I had moved all my stuff in my penthouse apartment.

I'm currently dressed in one of my many, many college sweatshirts along with one of my way too many pairs of vans.

(sorry for so many pictures, just want you to get the idea of who she is)

I turn on the engine to my 2019 Chevy Malibu and drive about 45 minutes away after stopping at Philz Coffee to get a large Tesora. 

After going up the elevator and fumbling with my keys to my apartment, I kick off my shoes and finally change into some sweats while laying on the couch of my barely furnished living room.

After scrolling through YouTube and deciding on watching old Shane Dawson Conspiracy Theory Videos for the 47th time, I order some In N Out from Postmates, because I feel like getting fat and doing nothing after waking up at 4:30 this morning to catch a flight. 

*ding*

I check my phone expecting a notification from Instagram that someone liked a post of mine.

*ding*ding*ding*ding*...

I'm surprised to see a string of notifications.

Ethan Dolan liked your post.

Ethan Dolan liked your post.

Ethan Dolan liked your post.

Notification after notification from one of the most unexpected people I thought would ever like my posts.

ethandolan (Ethan Dolan) : hey, I just wanted to say that I really enjoy your content. i saw that you moved to la recently and thought it would be really cool if you came to a small party that grayson and i are throwing tomorrow night. sorry for such short notice, but we'd love to meet you and maybe collab on a vid sometime. :))

So many thoughts were going through my head right now. I'm never the type to fangirl over someone but I couldn't help myself from smiling like a complete fucking idiot while reading his text over and over again. I honestly couldn't believe that one of the most famous and well-respected YouTubers enjoyed the content I make on my channel and wanted to potentially be friends. I had watched them ever since I was 14 year old hormonal teenager. And now I'm an 18 year old hormonal teenager going to the Dolan Twins house tomorrow night for a party. 

I finally managed to pull myself together in the least and calm down before I typed anything on the screen.

tessaavery.yy (Tessa Avery) : hey :)), i'm so glad that you enjoy my content, as do i with you and your brother. i've been watching your guys videos for a while now and you never fail to put a smile on my face. you guys are the actual definition of great content so you saying that you enjoy mine really means a lot to me. i'd love to come tomorrow night, just give me the time and place and i'll be there. 

ethandolan (Ethan Dolan) : can't wait to meet you, it starts @7 and ill send you the address in a sec, c u soon :))

Oh. My. Fucking. God.

I realize that I'm freaking out way more than I should be right now, but I just can't help it. It's the fucking Dolan Twins. Who the fuck wouldn't freak out. 

After a few minutes he gives me his personal number and sends me his address still talking about how much he enjoyed my content. I couldn't help but wonder why he had decided to reach out to me. I only make stupid commentary videos and try dumb Troom Troom Crafts for more views because that's what Danny Gonzalez did and he blew the fuck up.

When he had finished our small talk, it was about 6:30 so I decided to take a shower and brainstorm what I was going to wear tomorrow night. 

I was also way more nervous that I should've been about meeting them. And then, once again, the questions and overthinking came flooding in my mind.

What if they don't like me? What if they're nothing like how they are on YouTube?

Shut up.

Everything's going to be fine, right?