I'll Die Without You (nolou fanfiction)

1. hatred

Lou's POV

The door to the washer swung open & I tumbled out onto the washer soaked & wet, falling flat on my face. I turned to my left, seeing all the pretty dolls & ugly dolls leaving to Uglyville. I tried standing my knee's were weak & made me collapse to the ground again. I started to sob softly & looked to my left to see nolan comforting me which I didn't understand cause he chose this punishment for me. "I'm so sorry I did that to you" nolan said with his voice starting to break. "Why are you even here? Shouldn't you be with the others" I sharply sighed in frustration.

I stood on my feet & started heading to my mansion. "I'm staying here because I don't want you to be lonely" nolan groaned of frustration. It made me more confused because nolan chose this punishment for me & now he wants to stay here with me. "Fine you can stay, but on any circumstances, your sleeping on the couch" lou said in a annoyed tone.

I opened the door to my place & rushed upstairs to my bedroom & slammed the door. I laid in bed flat on my back as I stared up at the ceiling, feeling really guilty about what I did to all the pretty dolls & ugly dolls. My eyes clouded with exhaustion & I cried myself to sleep from all the guilt I felt.

Nolan's POV

I sat by the door of Lou's bedroom & heard his soft whimpering & crying which my heart fall into my stomach feeling guilty for what I did to lou. I walked down the stairs & layed on the couch & began to cry softly feeling ashamed of myself for doing this. I saw a picture of of lou on the floor & I grabbed it & stared at it as tears rolled down my cheek, barley opening my eyes. I held the photo of lou & caressed the pictures face with my finger feeling some a strange way.

I heard lou's bedroom door open & quickly stuffed it into my pocket, wiping my tears so Lou wouldn't see that I was crying & casually sat up so lou wouldn't find anything off about me. He reached the end of the stairs & walked into the living room & sat far away from me & grabbed a book & began reading it. I caught a good glimpse of his face & his nose was puffy & bit red & I could tell that he was crying then he gave a cold look & turned around with his back facing me. I turned my back as well with rage "You can't avoid me forever you know" I said feeling angry but guilty "Yes I can because your dead to me" lou said without looking behind him.

Lou's POV

I continued reading my book, feeling angry & extreme hatred for nolan & didn't lay an eye on him since I was so pisses off at him. It 7:00 p.m. & I felt a bit ravenous & went to the kitchen. I searched in the fridge & found some vegetables & made nolan & I a salad even though I hated nolan's guts & existence, I was willing to make him a decent meal. I handed the plate to nolan not making any conversation.

Lou's POV

I finished my food & placed my plate beside the sink & sort of stomped upstairs & heard nolan following me "Please lou can we talk" nolan said over & over again, gripping my wrist tightly but I pulled my wrist away out of annoyance & rage "No! We can not talk! So just leave me the fuck alone!" I shouted at nolan & slammed the door in his face & locked it. He rattled the door handle & eventually gave up. I heard him sobbing like crazy & I felt a knife pierced my heart for some strange reason but I crushed me. I layed down & began sobbing as well. Nolan eventually went down stairs as I felt strange but I didn't care. I went downstairs to check up on nolan & found him on the couch, sleeping peacefully. He sort of looked like a beautiful angel. I covered him with a blanket & caressed his cheek softly then I felt a magnetic force pulling me close to him. I wanted it to stop but I couldn't help. I pressed my lips on nolan's while holding his head softly.
I realized what I did was idiotic & i quickly pulled away & walked quietly upstairs back to my bedroom. I got under the covers & a million thoughts ran through my head. Am I in love with nolan? but it I couldn't be because it was one kiss & it probably didn't mean anything but his lips were so soft & they tasted so sweet that it was addicting. I eventually feel asleep & thought about these feelings more