me, an absolute crackhead

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friendless.

you don't really talk to me, even if i wish you did.

she's rude to me, and I'm trying to say sorry.

i wish i had someone to talk to, more people. but that's how I've always been, it isn't the first time. friendless, since childhood.

my feelings are all over the place. i hate myself. i hate what happened, i wish i could go back in time to change myself.

i want a new family. i wish i wasn't born.

im tired of them, of me.

im tired of having to deal with the shit I'm put through.

im tired of having to deal with the shit I've put myself through.

and im trying,

trying so hard,

to resist.

everyday is a challenge.

and im not sure i can keep up.