Cuts (Analogical Angst)

First time cutting

⚠️TW⚠️ Self harming and minor panic attack

Virgil's pov

I went downstairs to grab some food even though I'm fat enough... As I walked down the stairs I heard Logan shouting at Roman. Serves him right. I walked past unnoticed by them but a part of their conversation struck me.

"What do you mean? I would never love someone as arrogant as him! And anyways you know I don't feel, so why ask such a question Roman?!"

My heart shattered... The man I loved... Said these things about me... I mumbled a "nice one" under my breath. They whipped their heads around to face me. Roman looked at me with a shocked and panicked expression. Logan just stared at me... I walked back up the stairs, tears forming in my eyes.

𝚁𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗'𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚟

I glared at Logan.
"This is why you don't say things about him behind his back, he gets emotional an starts... Harming himself..." I whispered that last part under my breath. I glanced at Logan and he still wore that blank expression. I slapped him across the face (rip Logan) and went to find panic! at the everywhere.

Virgils pov

I stared at the razor for a few minutes before rolling up my pants and cutting my thighs. Blood trickled down my thighs and onto the bathroom floor. I heard a knock on the door so I wiped the blood off of the floor and bandaged my thighs. I rolled my pants down and answerd the door.
"Ye--" i was cut off by a large embrace. I looked to see who it was. "R-roman?" He hugged me tighter. When he finally let go he told me to roll my sleeves up. Luckily i had not cut my arms.
"Good, I dont want you to get hurt.. Expecially by that microsoft turd." I chuckled at that nickname.
"Hey um, if you ever need to talk, my door's always open." i nodded as he walked out. As he shut the door, i broke down crying.
Hes just saying that out of pity!
He doesnt like you, hes just using you!
Just die already no one likes you!
The voices... Theyre right.. Nobody likes me..... I should just die.... I rememberd a strategy Patton taught me when this happened...
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I controlled my breathing and got up. I layed down on my bed and went to sleep. Another day of torture lies ahead.....

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Wow this is crappy af sorry to everyone that has read this 😂 also ik this is an analogic fanfic and it kinda look like a prinxiety but I promise itll slowly develop into analogic!