It all started at the end of 2012 when I was told I had to do year 3 again this one small decision my primary school fucked up my life.
2013
People don't want to be friends with the dumb kid that failed year 3 but no one had the guts to say anything instead ignored me so I went from having friends to having nothing
My teacher that year was a dick to everyone who couldn't affect her job
By the end of the year I became friends with Nikita
2014
I lost my so called best friend Aidan he moved school this years teacher was better "she use to play netball with my grandmother when my mum was my 10 to 12" she would tell me she got me into books nothing really happened this except Brittany left it comes in to play next year
2015
Brittany was always there to protect me so now she's gone the bullying started people would tell me things like "how stupid do you have to be to repeat year 3?" " what a retard she so dumb she failed year 3?"And the icing on the cake was the teacher was letting this happen this year we were going to Canberra for camp around $800 per student I wish I stayed at school I learned she never really liked me because if she did like me she would have protected me from the bullies this is also when I was diagnosed with depression anxiety and social phobia(social anxiety) and my I started to have trust problems
I was what you called clinically depressed I hated the thought of get out of bed let alone go to school
Nikita's mum died this year I tried my best to help her get through this but she pushed me away if only I tried harder maybe the girl I know wouldn't have died and we wouldn't have just a mask
2016
This year was the worst of all of them at this point but at the same time is wasn't I had an amazing teacher that actually cared about me she did anything and everything she could do to protect me from them she even took me out of the two hours of lote because she couldn't shop them there me and Nikita aren't friends anymore she became a bully. The bullying got worse it was so bad that I would question it people would care if just died the conclusion was always no one would if it wasn't for miss cab and Mat-pat's videos I don't know were I would be right now I did because friends with a girl named Beth but I unknowingly pushed her away only noticing after is was to late
2017
I'm now a year seven with so many people who treated me like shit but I was nice if they need a changer I gave them one but even a small mistake I'm the bad guy and a horrible person the irony to that I be nice to you even when you had treated me like shit and I'm the bad guy
2018 - now
When every I let someone see me see my flows they end up leaving
Lacey - moved school
Indi - never was really my friend
Miss benson - moved schools
Miss D - moved school
Hamish - moved school
You can see my point the one rule I will never forget from the 4 years of primary was "you show any emotion like sadness or depression you are weak and you must hide it"
