This was most probably the worst day of my life. I just quit my career. Yes you heard right. Violetta Castillo quit her career. Maybe not forever, but at least for a while.
I am on my way home. Angie is driving. She didn't say a word since we left the filming studio where i openly said that i am backing off. It seemed like Angie was trying to think of something to tell me or comfort me but...for the first time ever...she had no idea how.
I just stared at the road thinking about what happened. I tried to hold my tears in, but i just couldn't. I wanted to cry so hard. The worst thing of all is THAT THE WHOLE WORLD THINKS LEON IS CHEATING ON ME. Like what the fuck? He works with someone so he NEEDS to date that someone? Really? I know he would never do that. I know very well...or...at least i hope so. I can't deny that i have these thoughts...about...well...that maybe those rumours aren't just rumours...and i just started crying even more.
I can't stand this. It all hurts so much. I just want to talk to Leon. I need to hear him. But of course he is not answering his phone. Right when i need him the most. Lucky me.
We pulled over the car next to the house. I got out without saying a word. I was greeted by Olga who was very worried but i still didn't say a word and I ran to my room,,Violetta! Vilu my dear please what happened?" Olga yelled across the room as i was getting up the stairs but i didn't care.
I slammed the door of my room and threw myself on to the beautiful comfortable bed and wrapped myself deep into the pink covers. I cried and cried and cried. I am just now realizing what i did. I actually quit. I quit my dream. This could cost me everything. Everything I ever worked for.
But It was enough. It really was enough. I couldn't let people take over my life like that. They were haunting me. Watching my every step like i am some kind of a doll. Like I am not a person with feelings or a life. Paparazzi took over my life. And it was enough. They even got between Leon and I....Oh...Leon...the thought of him made me cry even more.
I felt more tears that were coming down my cheeks. Who am i kidding this was a waterfall. I felt miserable. I just wanted to hear his voice. I wanted him to hug me and tell me his sweet words. But...he was not here. He was in LA.
I knew that it would be hard...but it is getting harder every day. At one moment i wanted to take my phone and call him and talk to him but...he probably wouldn't pick up. He was probably working. I don't want to bother him.
Then i heard a familiar tune. It was Leon singing. What? Am i imagining things now?...oh wait...that is just my...my phone. I really don't feel like talking to
anyone, but i decided to take it anyway.
A small smile formed on my face. It was Ludmilla. She called me on Face Time and i gladly excepted. I didn't talk to her for a couple of days since she was out of the country and i would really like to hear some words of comfort.I hesitated because i still wasn't sure if i was ready to talk to anyone...in the end i picked up. I wanted to say Hi but was immediately cut off by a shocked Ludmi
,,WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SEE ON TV??? PEOPLE THINK HE CHEATED ON YOU?!?!?! YOU QUIT??? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK???? VIOLETTA TALK NOW!!!!"
With those words more tears escaped my red, puffy eyes. I couldn't hold it in in front of her. I just couldn't. What she just said reminded me of what is actually happening
,,Okay Ludmilla i get it okay!" I said through tears,,I might have screwed up but i couldn't take it anymore. All those people playing with me like i am not a human. Playing with my feelings. Playing with my intire life. I am sick of it. I am not going back until all of this gets solved. I mean they even thought THAT THEY HAD RIGHT TO SAY ANYTHING about my relationship with Leon. Now who knows what is going on in LA, i just keep having doubts about him because of stupid rumours."
Ludmilla just looked at me over her screen and nodded her head,, Vilu, you know Leon would never do something like that. After everything you guys have been through, do you really think he would just let you go like that? I know that he didn't do such thing to you. I just know it. He will never hurt you."
I listened to every word. Carefully. She had a point. Why would i have any doubts about Leon? I know him. He would never do such a terrible thing to me. Ever. But still... i quit. She can't help me feel better about that
,,Thanks Ludmi. You helped me a lot. You really have no idea how much i miss him and need him right now. And i don't only mean over the phone. I mean for real..." i told her with a sad expression plastered on my puffy face
,,So what are you waiting for girl?" She told me as she raised her voice a little bit,, Uhm...sorry but...what???" I asked her totally not understanding where she was going with this,,Just go to LA girl. If you stay in Buenos Aires, the press won't leave you alone for a second and you miss Leon. Just go there, take some rest and be with him. He will help you get back on your feet."
She told me and I was quite surprised by what she said. She is probably right. But i honestly don't feel like traveling,,I will think about it. I don't feel like traveling right now. I just want to stay in bed all day and just cry. And then eat. And then cry some more and more..." I said with more tears in my eyes
,,Oh Vilu...you so need to get out of that room. Here is what we will do. I will call Leon and tell him that i am the one coming to LA and that he should wait for 'me' at the airport. He will do what i said but actually you are the one who will get out of the plane and surprise him. I know you will probably have tears in your eyes and then you will hug him and kiss him and you guys will have one of your romantic moments bla bla bla...but yeah...that is not hard to do."
She finally stopped blabbering and this little speech of hers made me smile,, I love you. Thank you." " I love you too Vilu. Now buy the tickets and i will call Leon tomorrow okay?" She asked and i still felt like crying a little more because of everything that happened today so i told her,, We will do that tomorrow Ludmi. Bye."
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The Big Change- Leonetta Fanfic
Fanfiction-Paparazzi...the press...all of them following my every step...I can't. I just can't take it anymore. They are acting like I am a doll. Like they can control me and take over my life. I can't let that happen. I am where I am because of music. Music...