Sight of You

Sight of You - Chapter 1

Chapter 1

I don't know whether to run away or not. My whole world has just collapsed. And I'm still not sure whether I should stay or not. But as time goes by I don't need to choose it myself. They choose it for me. Or should I say him. He turns his beautiful blue eyes at me and stare right into mine's. His whole face shows how regretful he is. But that doesn't matter, he still did it. When he looks at me like that I start to feel sorry for him. It sounds weird but I can't help it. It's something about his gaze that makes me want to throw myself into his arms and stay there for ever. But I won't. It will never be us again. We're over. For good.

“Samantha, please. It was nothing I swear,” he says while walking closer to me.

“I can't believe you. You, you, you kissed her!” I yell loudly. He has never heard me yell before and I can tell by his look that he's surprised. But who wouldn't yell in a circumstance like this? Everybody would.

“Listen to me, Sam. Please, just listen to me,” he says while still on his way towards me. I take a few steps back, I don't want to be close to him. “I know this is probably what everyone would say. But I promise you, it wasn't me. She kissed me.” I want to believe him so badly. But I can't. I just can't. “Sam, would I ever do something like that? Would I? You know I wouldn't. I love you, and only you.”

“I thought you wouldn't. I thought you were special. I thought you loved me. But all along you were just like him. You were just like him!” I yell even louder than before. My tears run down my face more than ever before and I can't seem to get them to stop. “This hurts way more than when he did it. You promised that you'd never do it and as stupid I was, I believed you.”

“Sam, I didn't do it. I haven't cheated on you! It was all her,” he says with his own tears running down his face. But why does he cries? He's the one who cheated, he didn't just see his boyfriend kiss another girl. That was me. Stupid, stupid me that thought he wouldn't do cheat on me. “Samantha Hines, you know I love you and that I would never do such a thing to you. She kissed me and I didn't kiss her back.”

“Stop it, just stop!” I yell. “I saw you. I saw you both. I know what I saw and I saw you two kiss each other. Don't lie!”

“Sam, please,” he cries. Those blue eyes looking straight into mine's. How can two innocent eyes like them, do something like this? “Listen to me, I didn't kiss her. She kissed me.”

“I want to believe you so much, I really do. But I can't. I know what I saw,” I say quietly. But I know he heard me. “And Carly, if I even see your name on my phone or closer than five metres away from me, I swear I'll kill you. Don't ever talk to me again.”

And with that I run away. I run home. When I get home I run up the stairs to my rook. In my room I throw myself into the bed. While there I start crying even more than before, if that's even possible. I loved him so much. I still love him so much.

We've been friends as long as I can remember, but grew closer when he helped me get over my ex-boyfriend who cheated on me as well. And that was also the time we started growing feelings for each other and soon became a couple. And the worst part wasn't even that he kissed another girl. The worst part was that the girl used to be my best friend. We had been best friend since the age of eleven. But that doesn't even matter even anymore. My boyfriend isn't my boyfriend anymore and my best friend isn't my friend anymore. Two of my closest friends are gone.

When I finally fall asleep, it doesn't help me much. All I dream about are them. Them kissing everywhere I am. I wake up in the middle of the night by my own scream. Every little part of my body is shaking. My whole bed is wet from tears. I hear someone coming into my room and soon realises it's my mum. She sits down next to me on my bed and starts to pat my back. It really calms me down.

“Do you want to tell me what's happened?” she asks me with a soft voice and I shake my head as an answer. “Then you don't have to. But you should get some rest, honey. Do you want me to stay here?” I nod. “Then I will. I won't leave you. Please, get some rest now, love.”

This time I fall asleep fast. And luckily I don't dream them this time. When I wake up the next time, it's morning. My mother isn't in my bed anymore and I can hear her doing something downstairs. I hear how she walks upstairs and comes into my room once again. When she sees me awake she smiles at me and hand me breakfast. She sits down next to me and we start to talk about everything that happened last night. I'm very blessed to have a mother that I can talk to everything about. Somehow she makes me feel a bit better, not much but still a bit.

Still, all I can think of is his blue eyes. Those blue eyes I feel for for the first time. Those blue eyes I could stare into forever without getting tired. Those blue eyes I want to look into when he says he loves me more than I could ever understand. Those blue eyes I loved most in the world. Those blue eyes I used to love the sight of.