Baby (Drabble/One shot)

Baby...

The weather is nice... clear sky, smooth wind and the comfortable warmth. No one would miss a day like this to go out and enjoy.

I hold her hand in mine and walk in the pathway, enjoying the view, the sweet smell that breeze carry. We spot an empty lovers bench and we sit down to exchange sweet nothings for few minutes. Soon her eyes meet an ice-cream cart and she asks for one like an excited child. I smile, stand up and walk to the cart to get her what she wants.

"WAIT! Let me buy first!" A small girl stands before me~ demanding to let her buy the ice-cream first even though I was the one who came first. I let out a small chuckle and bend down to match her height.

"Why should I let you buy first?" I ask jokingly looking in to her small eyes.

"Because I'm small! Don't you know! Children should be treated first! This Gege is so dumb!"

My eyes widen as I back off a little. I'm swayed by the smart sass of the small girl. Cunning little thing - I think, but I find it adorable in a way at the same time.

"A-Lee!!! Don't talk like that!" A young woman that I assume is the girl's mother comes running and pulls the little girl close to her. She smiles apologetically before bowing her head.

"I'm really sorry. She's a little troublemaker"

I chuckle and shake my head in denial. "It's nothing. She's a wise girl" The lady looks at the girl and mouths something.

"Okay then Young Lady go ahead, buy first" I stand straight and step back allowing the small girl to buy her ice-cream first. I watch her run away with two large ice cones in hand before I buy my own ice-creams and walk back to the bench where my girlfriend is waiting.

She wraps her hand around my arm before grabbing her ice-cream cone. We talk about the weather, who knows what-trees in the park, weekend plans and whatnot as we enjoy the melting sweet.

"Ow!!!"

I wince as something hit my head outta the blue. I turn to find the culprit and see a big ball on the ground next to me. Soon a little boy comes running and stops midway seeing me pick up the ball. I almost throw the ball back to the boy but then I realize I could end up hitting one of the many people in the park. I think to take the ball to the boy instead. I stand up, rubbing my head and start walking towards the boy.

"Xiao Yuan!" I can hear a voice call the little boy from his behind.

"Die!" The boy shouts back calling for his dad... a worry tangled with his voice. I think the boy is afraid I wouldn't return the ball. I shake my head and continue walking towards the boy. I am just five meters away from the boy when a figure appears behind him. The boy run and hugs the man's leg.

"die-die..."

And I look at the timid boy's father. My feet freeze on spot and the ball slips from my hands.

I am met with a pair of dark brown- almost black eyes... a pair of big expressive eyes... a pair of eyes that I used to love.

It's him.

Xiao

Zhan.

The same Xiao Zhan that happened to have a crush on me. The same Xiao Zhan I fell in love with. The same Zhanzhan I dated... was madly in love with. The one I crazily lusted over. The one I spent the happiest moments of my life with. The one I swore to be with regardless of the social norms, the country's bullshit laws. The one and only man that deeply loved and longed for me...

The man I was caught red handed with in high school. The man that was shamed, hated and ridiculed beyond imagination. The man that was afraid of my safety than his own. The man who was concerned about my career, my dreams, my future. The man that said he wished he met me in another place and time... The same man that decided to end everything we had in between us.

"Die! What are you doing! COME!!!"

"Oh- A-Lee... I'll- I'll come" I see the little girl from earlier come shout at him and run away...back to her mother.

I breathe.

Yes that Xiao Zhan... standing before me... A father to children... a husband to a lady.

I stare in to those brown eyes... that are now glistening from the unshed tears.

I don't know if I'm imagining, but I see a hint of regret in those eyes. I see a longing and pain... a heavy pain. I see those eyes beg for something I cannot understand.

The kid-

His son, Yuan picks up his fallen ball breaking my eyes from his father's and runs away from us.

The next time I look at him, the tears have fallen.

"Yib..." His voice cracks as He keeps a step forward to approach me.

"Ge!!" -And He is disturbed by the girl that clings on to my arm.

I turn to face my girlfriend and give her the best smile I can manage to form with my distorted state. She smiles back and drags me by my arm saying something about going somewhere else, but I don't really hear her words.

And For some reason I don't resist her soft pulls.

I let myself get dragged away and watch how Zhan Ge's hand reaches out trying to stop me. But... it's too late... for everything.

He's someone else's. I'm someone else's.

There is no need to share words that could do nothing good.

I decide to leave things the way they were...for the best. For all of us. I turn my head back and look at the love of my life for one last time. I carve his face in my mind, and I smile.

I give him the most loving smile and walk away. 

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AN:

thanks for reading. that's the end

 (@taesuk & areum who I know will eventually read  this: YEAH! I did something petty.)