Lose Control

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=Louis Tomlinson=

"The role of law in a business perspective allows corporates to structure and organize the way business affairs are handled, from the contracts, trades...."

The sounds of bags unzipping and students taking out laptops or journals to take notes, as whispers and shuffling faded out into complete silence.  The echoing of the professors voice vibrates throughout the room and the bored faces of every students just creates a depressing atmosphere. I slouch down to grab my leather journal with notes from previous lectures, scribbled in chicken shit that only I can decipher. I lean back into my chair with a peaked interest in the subject. Gripping my pen and I begin to write down in paraphrases what the professor blurted out.

After 8 filled pages, the lecture had come to a halt when the clock stoke 10:30. With a silent sigh, I pack my things up as Dr.Burton reminded students of the exam for the upcoming week. Students hurry out of class eager to go back to their flats to catch up on the hours of sleep that this course had rid students of . I was one of the last few left in the class who didn't seem to mind the early hours of the course. This was a rare time during the morning where you can sit on a campus bench to hear the birds singing an early tune, the gentle whispers of the wind, or just admire the dull grey clouds across the campus, without the large crowds of students.

My eyes were attached to my phone as I walk out of the lecture hall, only to be faced with a vigorous shove, making me hit the floor and dropping my phone.

"Wha' the 'ell you prick, watch where you're goin!" My eyes wander the ground as I look for where my phone had plonked off, a stuttered apology makes me lookup.

"Oh god, I-I'm really sorry! I'm late to class and I just thought running was a uh- a good idea." 

I get off from the floor, wiping my trousers from dust or dirt. A mess of brown fluffy curls and eccentric green eyes gushed out apologies making me stare at this lad for more than I should have and with no shame. 

To say the least, I usually date lads, not ladies, and I'm very proud of my sexuality to be quite honest. I didn't scream it on tops of buildings though, but if you asked me I wouldn't hesitate to answer. It's been really difficult to date around here though, I've gone on midnight rendezvous with different men, but to them, it was just a quick fuck or exploration for their sexuality. They were never really serious even though I really wanted them to be.

"I- Uhm, I have to get to class and I'm really sorry again, I could buy you a new phone if you want-" My hand came up to wave off his offer, and to decline the apology.

I mean he could buy me a new phone, but I come from a very affluent family that had the riches to live 20 lifetimes.

"Oh no, es' alright, I sho'uv been looking forward instead of down, it's totally my fault luv." I assure him, with red flustered cheeks, he nods and gives a tiny wave, turning around walking fast in the other direction. I smile from how embarrassed he was when I called him to love.

Once he was out of sight, my smile disappears as I realized that my idiot self didn't even bother to ask for his name.

"Fooking idiot", I whisper to myself, disappointed in missing an opportunity to kindle a sort of relationship with the mystery lad.

With a huff of frustration, I look down on the floor and see my phone shattered into pieces indicating another trip to the store.

"Should have gotten his number, but no, I let him walk away. Come on Tommo," I groan out "You're better than that you twit." I yell in a whisper.I look back toward the corridor of where he went, hesitating to run and look for him, but deciding it would be really weird and creepy.

I grab my bag from the floor, that I didn't realize fell, and headed straight through the doors leading to the outside. The gray clouds that were brightened from the sun made me squint because of the dark lit corridors the campus has. I make my way to my flat as I replay the memory of bumping into an handsome curly-haired boy, who I will most definitely run into again.