here we go again at the same and boring math class. i don't really know what's the purpose of them teaching us these numbers with letters. nevermind, i grabbed my wallet and pulled the most precious picture i've hidden through the times.
"you should stop being so pretty everytime, or else my heart would really burst out." i whispered on the air while looking at the polaroid. it's me and jennie on it, when we're still hanging out at our secret sanctuary.
my mind kept blaming my heart for the stupid things it made, and the recent one it did? ignore jennie. well i can't blame my own mind too, she's too smart yet too fool in love.
i have been giving jennie cold shoulders since i figured out that the butterflies in my stomach already means something. that the sudden presence of tint shade in my cheeks was caused by her gummy smile.
she's been silent too, i think she felt that i am mad at her which is opposite. instead of listening to the formulas our teacher writes on the board, i decided to write a letter for her.
i'm so engrossed in composing her a letter that i didn't notice it's already our breaktime. i've put some mandu drawings at the bottom and wallah! this just needs to be delivered.
rosie, my best friend, came up to me so we can grab our snacks together but i immediately declined. i think i will not be able to eat properly when she's there clinging at her girlfriend jisoo and make me a pathetic third wheel.
"oh c'mon lisa! we're so considerate of you because you're gonna be here lonely when it's freaking valentine's."
"who told you i'll be lonely chonga? i have something to do, eat well gays! no vaginas please" i shouted as i sprint to reach jennie on her classroom.
small crowds were found on the hallways and i just need to ignore the students who were smacking their faces with each other.
i am now at the front of her classroom and i tried to knock, but before i lift my fist the door opened.
"hey lisa, whatchu doin' here?" nayeon greeted me.
"uh-uhm i-i ju-just have something to give to je-jennie." i internally cursed myself for being a stupid ass in front of her. i stole a glance at her and saw that she's also surprised.
"just please read this when you already got home jen." after that i ran away and prayed to gods i will not embarass myself with that.
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lisa's letter kept bugging me and i can't focus on the discussion. she said to read it when i got home but hell nah, i'm jennie kim and i am stubborn. i opened her letter and read it.
"
february 14, 2020
dear jennie,
i know you might be angry at me right now since i was ignoring you for these past few days, but please hear me out. your smile is my sunshine, the one that will brighten my bad and dark days. your giggles is my favorite melody, the one that will always come up to my mind when something funny happens. your cheeks that are my treasure, the one that i love to pinch and kiss for a lifetime. your passion is my motivation, the one that will always reminds me to strive it more. your eyes damn it, it's so beautiful that i fell into it deeply. it's an ocean and i feel like i'm a lost pirate trying to find a hidden yamashita or something. and while i dive deeper, i found the most precious thing i can ever find, it's your heart hun. that golden, soft, brave, and special heart i am more willing to surrender mine. i found it in you, and if you're wondering why i've been a dumbass because i finally figured it out. i love you with all of my love and heart and soul and my whole being, i love you to the moon and back, to infinity and beyond. i wish you're up for a valentines date?
love,
lisa.
"
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"i wanna spill that shake so bad so you guys can stop being cheesy over there sipping with that one straw."
"yah lisa! don't even try, i will tell dalgom to bite you."
"if you just stop being a bitter one there and personally asked jennie to go out, you won't be here sticking with our supposed to be date."
"ok it's my fault fine. imma go home now. enjoy lovebirds."
when i entered my car, our sanctuary popped out suddenly of my head. i started the car and drove there.
i've never been to our secret place the past few weeks, it's when you know i ignore her. i sat at the bench and relaxed myself.
"that would be so rude of you to not pick up your date, isn't it?" i jumped from my seat after i heard her voice.
"ho-how did yo-you know i wa-was here?!"
"you're not a clever person lisa, stop acting like i don't know what's running on your head."
she sat beside me and brought out two gallons of ice cream, chocolate and milk, our all-time favorites.
"i have read your letter and it was nice, the drawings saved it."
my face blushed at the mention of my love letter. oh no please don't tell me i'm gonna be rejected exactly at valentine's day.
"why didn't you tell me sooner? you just made it hard for us."
"huh?"
"were you all this time clueless and naive? i love you too lisa for god sake! did you know how much i want to confess it to you today? but you screwed it up with your letter."
"you love me?? like the same way?? holy sheep."
she hide her red cheeks with her tiny hands but failed because i already saw her smile.
"now you're the one who's getting shy? i thought you want to confess to me."
she just hugged me and murmured.
"i love you too lisa, as much as you do, or even more. please take good care of my heart hun."
i hugged her more tighter and said back.
"i love you so so so so so so much. you quiet enjoyed the endearment, didn't you? happy valentine's hun."
and that's how the most memorable day of hearts happened to me.
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here's my post valentine greeting. feel the love guys xoxo.
