Anatomy of a Letter

Chapter 6

Wednesday//5:20 pm//

Harry's P.O.V

After the record store I decided to go to the coffee shop.

I just got coffee and a sugar snowman cookie, i found them cute and christmas is near by so why not.

I've always enjoyed the company of one itself. I have friends and all but I've always enjoyed my own company. I like not having someone beside me 24/7.

After an hour of drinking coffee and reading at the shop i decided to head back home.

I was walking near the record store, and i saw the same girl that attended me playing the piano that was there. I'm pretty sure she was playing Nocturne in C-sharp minor, the windows were thin since it sounded pretty loud. I decided to take my phone out and record her, i know i sound like a creep, i wanted to draw her, I'm an artist, not a very popular one of course. I've always enjoyed drawing since i was a toodler.

I found myself starting at the window until she stopped playing. She got up and i hid behind the wall. I waited until she turned around so i could walk to the other side and get home.
She turned around and I quickly went to the other side.

I leaned agains the wall, I decided to take out a cigarette out, I didn't smoke often, i do it when i feel like it, I inhaled in the smoke and let it out.

I tried my first cigarette when i was seventeen, i find smoking a stress reliever. I'm not addicted and I'm hoping i wont.

I started walking home, I lived on my own, and my house was only five minutes away so why not. I've always enjoyed walking, even when it's cold. I'm excited for christmas, I celebrate with some of my friends but i think I'll celebrate alone this year.

I have been isolating myself from my friends, they dont text me to hang out with them. That's probably a sign for them not wanting me to hang out with them. I enjoy my own company but it's frustrating sometimes, being lonely 24/7, The thing that I'm most worried about is just being alone without anybody to care for or someone who will care for me. I mean yeah i like to be alone but I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.

Language... has created the word 'loneliness' to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word 'solitude' to express the glory of being alone. It hurts being alone all the time.

As much as i try to be happy, it doesn't work out.

I haven't dated anybody in a very long time. I did it for fun, I was never looking for someone serious, I would just play with girls and not care what they felt. Then it hit me that i want someone who's not going to want me just for sex, i want someone who likes me for me. Sadly, the right girl hasn't come along. I'm still waiting on her, if i find someone, good, if I don't oh well I can't really do anything about it.

I found myself still smoking the cigarette, I dropped it on the floor and stepped on it.

I decided to walk home now. My house wasnt far away. It was now 7:00 pm and it was dark.

I got home and decided to go to my room and play the records that I bought today. The record player i have is black. I bought two vinyls, one of The 1975 and Arctic Monkeys vinyl, I bought the album Favourite Worst Nightmare. Arctic Monkeys and The 1975 are both really great bands. I've gone to some of their concerts and they are fun.

When you go to a great concert, you feel this arc, almost like the music of a well-chosen set takes you on this trip through emotions and through various forms of intellectual engagement.

I've always loved music since i was a kid. I would always sing. I love to sing. My mother would always tell me i have a good voice. I want a career in music. But it's difficult to get into the music industry. There's a million people in this world that want a music career. The majority of people are a lot better musician than i am.

Robbers By The 1975 started playing in the record player. I love the song, there's a story behind every song.

I have written some of my own songs, i know how to play the guitar and piano. The songs I've written are good i guess but not great.

//Author's Note//

I used some celebrity quotes in this chapter.