Training is not easy. But I mean it's like that for everyone else too right? Eventually Lee Sooman told me I would be debuting with a group. But that it was different since I would be the only girl in a boy group. I honestly don't know what goes through that man's mind. He explained the whole concept of the group and told me I would be debuting with the sub-unit nct u with the seventh sense. I was pretty skeptical about the whole situation wondering if he was joking or actually being serious.
After weeks of endless practice and restless nights, our manager finally established our debut date. Once he did I expected all the work to be less now but it DEFINITELY wasn't. It was worse. So much pressure and stress was built up in me and I still have school to deal with as well!
Today was the MV shooting. I was still pretty stressed but I'm actually so grateful to be debuting. I just hope people will like me...
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"I hope the MV comes out well" Doyoung said. "Me too" I smiled. I was excited to see how it turned out.
We are about to go on stage in three minutes and I'm freaking out. I.AM.TOO.NERVOUS!!!! "Don't be nervous Kimiko! We are all going to do great you'll see!" I nodded and gulped the lump in my throat. The music started playing and fans started cheering. Suddenly all my worry and nervousness just left my body and I was ready to show who's boss. (A/N I quoted one of their songs get it :) ( I rlly thought I did something there omg-)
We did it? WE DID IT! HELL YEAH WE JUST DEBUTED!!!!!! "WOOOOO IM SO HAPPY!!" I went on social media to look at comments. They were mostly good I guess... a lot of the negative ones were about me though :(
"SM really screwed up this time putting a girl in a boy group"
"Why is she there?"
"She doesn't fit in"
"She doesn't deserve to debut with them"
It made me sad so I just shut off my phone and decided to work on school work. My father told me that not everyone's going to like me but true fans/ people will so I shouldn't be upset about these types of things. I've got other things to worry about anyway.
"1, 2, 3, TO THE WORLD NCT! HELLO EVERYONE WE'RE NCT U!" All of us spoke to the camera. We were live and wanted to talk to our fans. We had a pretty decent time talking to them. I saw hate comments here and there but I was unbothered. There was plenty of nice comments so I'm happy we have those fans. I'm just thankful to have such supportive people around me.
After the live my dad called me to congratulate me on my debut. "I'm so proud of you Mei! I knew you could do it! Hisashi, Yuto, and Sakura are also very proud of you! I'm sure they'll call you soon! Oh I'm so happy! I'm sure you'll do great things in the future! You should really come visit us when you can, we miss you over here." "Thank you touchan! I miss you guys too! I'll visit you when I can" I smiled. "I'm sure you're doing amazing in South Korea! Your mother would be so proud!" My smile dropped a little. "Yeah, I would hope so.." I miss her. I wish she could've held on for a little longer. She knew how much I wanted to be a dancer. She was always there rooting me on. That's why when my father called me saying she was very sick I decided that everything I do would be for her. Even though she isn't here. It's a promise I made that I can't break. "Well you should go rest, I'll call you when I have time to okay?" "Of course sweetie! I love you!" "I love you too, stay healthy touchan!" "I will!" —————————————————————————— AUTHORS NOTE: oop-
