Light 'em up

Waking up

You remember bright lights and being so scared yet warm almost like the lights were calling for you...you could hear your mother calling out your name as her bright blue eyes flashed in your memories...mom didnt have blue eyes...a voice was calling out someones name as the lights faded.

Your body felt sore and grimy as you sat up groggily your hands being cut up from the sharp pieces of metal beneath you

you looked up to see kids and toys floating above you a sharp pain in your leg made you cry out but there was no sound you looked down seeing the long claw marks running down your calf you whimpered at the sight of dried blood.

you started to move cutting up the floral sundress you were wearing the once white fabric was no covered in dirt and blood, you limped down the hill of toys stumbling as you hit the cold slimy ground you could hear music in the distance it was eerie sounding as you grabbed the closest thing to you that could be used as a weapon you began to limp towards an opening hearing someone yell 'fat boy' you hobbled a little faster as the music got closer its eerie tune right behind you as you saw a flash of orange pop off the wall 'help me!' You tried to yell yet no sounds came out you kept a fast pace as you looked back seeing IT skipping behind you with an oversized grin you weren't paying attention as you collided with something falling on top of someone they landed with a splash and a grunt you looked up seeing a familiar face "pa...ick" you focused on your voice as the eerie tune stopped you rolled over just as the clown launched itself at you two swinging the metal bar through the air the clown disappeared in a puff of smoke making patrick jump up tugging you with him as he pulled your limp form out of the sewers.

"Just in on channel 7 news A girl that went missing a year ago was found by a teen boy venturing through derrys sewer system alive, we will keep you posted on this upcoming story" the news anchor reported infront of the patrol cars and ambulance that had came patrick was talking to deputy bowers getting a statement as your leg was getting wrapped 'missing a year?' The flashing blue and red lights started to put you in a trance swaying gently side to side as you tried to remember yet nothing came to...its as if everything from your memories were erased you could barely remember how you knew patrick but once you glanced at his panicked green eyes you saw flashes of a green ruler and a basement you could feel heat on your fingertips like they were burning "y/n?" Deputy bowers voice made you whip your head letting out a strangled cry at the stiff ache making the bones pop "its okay darlin' just know we're happy to have you back" deputy butch bowers pulled you into a tight hug and memories started to flood your mind of a boy with bright blue eyes, you could feel pain and rage overcome your senses as you weakly pushed the mans chest your instincts screaming at you to get him off you he simply gave you a sad smile as he walked away.

"y-y/n?" Patrick whispered sitting next to you hesitantly your memories flashed of smirks and laughter being squished between a blur of blonde and patrick "pat...ick" your words were broken and to soft to be heard as you frowned your eyebrows scrunched together as you tried again "Patrick..." your vocal cords shook and ached from not being used for such along time "what was that?" He whispered leaning closer to you, you felt your heart start to flutter you felt nervous at how close he was as you moved to whisper in his ear "evil" you were able to whisper the words with clarity as you caught patricks worried green eyes "do you remember us?" He asked you furrowed your brows worrying your lip as you stiffly shook your head "do you remember the day you disappeared?" He made you look up at him as he gripped your now clean and bandaged hands "lights...bright ones" you whispered as you began to shiver patrick pulling you into his side feeling his body shiver from fear "i missed you" patrick confessed as the people of derry started to gather round you as a familiar boy pushed his way through running towards you throwing himself at you "oh my god sis i thought it killed you!!!" The curly black hair tickled your nose as he squeezed you tight making your ribs ache his thick glasses fogging up from his tears "i was in lights it felt like home" you choked out seeing maggie and went running towards you, wrapping their arms around you as if you'd disappear again "oh my babygirl!" Maggie cried out pushing the hair out of your face seeing your pale scared skin and seeing your collarbones were poking out both your parents hugged each other sobbing as they took in your severely malnourished and battered body.

At the hospital you had many visitors mainly richies friends but you did see henry, belch and vic. Your parents and richie never left your side they had to practically force patrick out of the room to go get sleep and go home to change since he smelled like the sewers your memories swarmed your brain like hoards of bees buzzing around it started to hurt trying to remember as days ticked by your tests came back your parents were devastated as you felt nothing. Your emotions were empty as you blinked at the doctor as he whispered the results of a test you could hear maggie sob loudly and wentworth going on about how he'd find the fucker who did this to his daughter "excuse me doc?" Your voice had came back but still had a bit of a raspy tone to it "yes miss tozier?" The older male doctor with blonde hair and a faint ghosting of blonde stubble "may i know the results of whatever that test was?" You spoke clearly seeing the doctor was nervous about sharing the results "miss tozier the results from the swab and vaginal cavity check were positive for forced trauma and scarring" he stated as cold and clinical as he could watching you blink as you took in his words you don't remember anything like that happening. You watched richie stare off into space as your parents sat on the bed taking your hands "do you remember your attacker y/n?" Wentworth spoke trying to sound calm as silent tears fell from his face you shook your head "no..." you lied giving richie a knowing look as he frowned getting up from his spot and leaving the hospital room.