~Pumpkin King~
I love someone
But I'm not sure if she loves me back
She's beautiful
But the problem is
I'm dating another girl
She's amazing and caring
But I don't feel that spark
That I felt with her at the beginning of our relationship
I once considered cheating
But the other girl knows that we're dating
The other girl, well
She used to like me
But I shot her down
I told her I liked her a few months earlier
Her friend told me
that she had liked me since
February. It was April
When I found out
I was scared
So I shot her down
We didn't talk from
April to September
My girlfriend brought us closer together
I feel like I was stupid
I know she was hurt
But the scary reason is
I know she is depressed
I knowshe's suicidal
Maybe an eating disorder
For the depressed part,
An alcoholic dad
Bitchy and Bully Grandma
Her mom is stressed out
Her older brother is the only one who relates to her (different mom)
Her older sister didn't talk to her for five years (different moms)
Her younger brother hits her
For the suicidal,
I found her depressed Instagram page
She talks about suicide
And how she'll plan her death
For the eating disorder
She doesn't eat lunch
Or breakfast
I only see her drinking water
But the problem is my girlfriend
She says she loves me
But I don't love her
I'm not happy in my relationship
I wish I could turn back time
And tell her I liked her before
When I started dating my girlfriend
I thought i wouldn't remember my feelings for the other girl
But I do
And it kills me inside
Every day of my life
