but i want you

you weren't expecting this...

*you realize you did it again*

*you look over at your phone on the ground*
*new voicemail*
*zoe*

*you and berkley are on the ground, berkley has nothing on. like normal. you have sweatpants and shirt on. like normal*

"i should go" you say, getting up.

"yeah, probably" berkley, rubbing her face.

*nothing can stop you from leaving, even berkleys sexy body and her perfect lips, and her- no nothing. nothing can stop you*

*you get up, pick your phone and your keys up*

*berkley walks you to the door after she gets her own sweats, and her crop top that was laying beside you guys*

"bye" you say, hugging berkley.

"bye, see you soon?" she replied, wrapping her arms around the back of your neck, pressing her body against you.

*you smile are her words*

"of course" you say.

*your arm wrap around her, around her small naked waist*(she's wearing a crop top)

*you break the hug, before anything else happens, and start walking down the hallway*

*you get to your car, you get in and just sit there, looking straight*

*you just thought about your situation, and how bad it was*

-you can skip they're isn't really a point to this-

~you fucked this girl, went to lunch with your best friend, saw the girl there, didn't hate it, saw that theres obviously something going to between then, you didn't care (which you should have), and you did it again with her leaving your best friend waiting, your friend then leave because something happened (which you should she cared more about), then took her the girl to her bed, had great sex, then some more, then some more, then tried to leave, but couldn't and have some more, then you actually left, after hugged her which made you want to stay, now sitting in your car imagining fucking her again. what the fuck is wrong with meeeee.~

-thinking stops-

*you look at your phone*

*see all the messages*

Zoe: hey, sorry about yesterday.
Zoe: dont be mad at me🥺
Miss call by Zoe
New Voicemail from Zoe

"fuck" you say to your self.

You: im not mad
You: are you at your house

*you insanely get a text back*

Zoe: yeah, come over.

*you drive to her house. not wanting to tell her what happened, really not wanting to, but you know you need to. you don't want to lose her, but that also makes you not want to tell her*

*you get to her house*

"billiee!" zoe yells as she's opening the door, with a huge smiling, that you could never get enough of. she runs over to you and jumps on you, hug you*

*you both laugh*

"i thought you were mad at me, cuz i just left" zoe says, as you both are walking into the house.

"no not at all it was fine" you say, happily.

"you look...i don't know. what have you been doing?" zoe says, looking your hair, how messy your bun is, laughing.

"it's just my bun, yano they're always messy" you say laughing. you knowing why you look the way you do, you didn't even get to look in the mirror before you left berkley's.

*you both go inside, about 40 minutes go by*

*you and zoe go to the living room, after eating and talking in the kitchen about random stuff*

"so what did you and berkley do after i left?" zoe asked, sitting on the couch.

"um just finished eating. why?" you ask, sitting down, on the other side of the couch. trying to play it cool.

"just wondering" zoe replies, scrolling through instagram on her phone.

"oh. are you and her a thing or something?" you ask, cuz you did fuck her...a few times.

"no not really, she's just really hot" zoe says giggling.

"oh okay and i know" you say giggling, which them not being not a thing makes the situation i little better, and you don't want to keep talking about it cuz you don't want to hear more.

*zoe move closer to you*

*she lays her head on your lap, laying down*

"are you tired" you ask, looking at your phone.

"no" she reply's, looking at you in your eyes.

"oh okay?" you say, giggling down at her.

*a few seconds go bye*

"what would you do if i kissed you right now" zoe asked, looking at your lips.

*she grabs the back of you neck, and pulls your head down slowly*

*you don't know what to do*

"wha-" you say, getting closer to her lips,
not stopping her.

*her lips touch yours*

*you kiss her back but don't do anything else, you don't know what to do or think but you knew her lips felt good against yours*

"did you hate that?" zoe asks, close to your face, you felt her breath against your lips.

*you look at her lips, then her eyes. you don't even think twice after you make one decision, and that was to close yours eyes and kiss her more*

*she stands up and sits on top of you, giving you small slow pecks*

*zoes slips her tongue in your mouth*

*you both kept kissing, your hands were in her waist n ass and hers were on your jawline and neck*

*it felt different, not like any one else, it almost felt like a connection, and you didn't want to stop you didn't think about stopping either*

*you stood up, zoe tightens her legs around your waist, you start carrying her to her room*

*you sat her on her bed, crawling on top of her laying her down, she grabbed your chin and pulled you close, she pulled your bottom lip down with her thumb and kisses you slowly, forcing your tongue to touch hers*

*zoe takes off her pants, still kissing you*

*you weren't sure if it was a good idea to go any further, but you weren't gonna stop, you've never wanted her like this, you take her shirt off*

*all the sudden you hear a door open and close*

"zoe i'm home! just for a few minutes though! i gotta be back at work in a few!" her mom yelled from down stairs.

*you realize what your doing and how weird this is to hear her mom yell while you're kissing and taking off zoe's clothes*

*you jump up getting off zoe*

"i should go" you say, fixing your hair as much as you can.

"she's gonna leave soon" zoe said, with no pants on.

"i know but like what are we doing we've never done this" you say, walking towards zoe's bedroom door confused on how you feel about this.

"i know but i-...i'll text you later" zoe blurts out before you shut her door.

*you left her room, to your car*

"what the fuck" you say under your breath in ur car.