Outro : Tear | A Kookjin FF |

2. Always together, yet so far

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Seokjin scrunched up his nose as the smell of dried cum and sweat hit him up.
He hastily throwed the bed cover from his body but stopped when he realized he was naked beneath them.
He sighed, draping the dirty sheet around him, trying to get up, but instead groaned in pain, as a sharp pain shot throughout his lower region, making him drop back on the bed.

Angry tears slipped from Seokjin's eyes, as he, dreaded about thinking what happened last night.
How could he let someone ruin him again and again and again.
Why was he so helpless, why couldn't he voice out his pain and anger.

Seokjin stood up and went inside the bathroom, turning on the faucet as the cold water cascade down his body, making the bruises on him burn.
He stood under the shower, emotionless, staring at the cold tiles.

Seokjin stepped out the cubical now in front of the mirror, as he gently patted himself, avoiding the broken skin.

"I wish I could just close my eyes and let the pain vanish, but what about my heart where I feel the real pain, you have trapped me in this marvelous castle of yours, just like how you have trapped me in this relationship. I hope to starve for food rather than your love, I hope I did never meet you, never known you, never showed you my face, this beauty of mine is a curse."
"I wish you'd love me just like I do, but I know I won't die even if you don't reciprocate my love."
"I wish for a lot of things but mostly, for you to set me free."

Seokjin looked at himself through the mirror, his body looked ugly with scars drawn on it, hickeys... no bruises all over his neck, a clear indication that his body belonged to him.
His eyes were dull and sullen, no gleam in them, which he was happy for. At least now he would think Seokjin was ugly, but Seokjin was so wrong, he always looked beautiful with his flaws.

"Why are you doing this to me?"
Seokjin screamed eyes facing the plain ceiling.

"What did I ever do to you, why am I the one who is suffering, why, why, why?"
Seokjin yelled till his throat burn, but who exactly was he letting out his anger on, no one was there to listen to him, except the one who was above all, who listens to everyone without letting then being interrupted, who shares their pain and their sorrows.

"I never hurted a single soul, then why am I being hurted like this, what did I do wrong rather than asking for his love."
Seokjin saw his reflection in the mirror, visioned being with him, him taking care of Seokjin, waking up with his beloved fiancè, snuggled in bed with arms around each other, sharing sweet morning kisses, eating their food together while doing little mischiefs, working together in the company, going out for shopping, showering each other with love and mostly importantly making sweet sweet love rather than being used almost every night by his own fiancè.

"Just hold on a little longer, you too will be loved."
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Asshole
7:12 am
Don't even think of taking the day off, I pay you for working for me, not for you to sit at home and look pretty.
P.S
Behave

Seokjin read the message and slammed in phone on the counter, cursing at him, going out as he got ready for work.
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Seokjin greeted the lady at reception receiving a warm smile in return as he headed off to his cabin.

"Seokjin, wait"
Su-ah, the secretary of his boss called as she saw the other entering his cubical.

"He called you."
She said, giving him a pity look, as Seokjin whole heartily knew what he was up-to.

"Thanking you for letting me know Su-ah."
He bowed to her, dashing off to his cabin.
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As soon as Seokjin reached he was greeted with the most obnoxious sight of his fiancè thrusting his tongue down some office employee.
This was nothing new to him, but the pain of seeing the same everyday just added up to his agony.
But that was not it, the narcissist even had the audacity to smirk at Seokjin while kissing someone else.

Yet Seokjin stood their, with his guard up, looking straight in the  eye of his fiancè as the other kept stabbing his soul.

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A/N
Will Seokjin ever receive the love he deserves?