14 Letters

Letter 09

February 9, 2020

To My Valentine,

I went to church alone again. I prayed for a sign, and I don't really know if things like this would work.

I've been feeling weird these passed few days, and... is this really fine though? You're making me feel weird and so my heart. I can't even name it.

You just made it worse, when I saw you again. It was already evening when the mass has ended, and I'm on my way to get home walking through the street lights. I saw you again, you get on to the white car and it seems like you attended the mass too. I tried to look at you from the tinted windows, but I couldn't see you clearly and it looks like you're with a girl sitting right beside you. After a few moments, your car left in front of me... I was left wondering and vulnerable again.

I don't really know, why I'm feeling this way... Why I'm feeling this way towards you.

I've never been this interested to someone, I've never been this weird to someone and I've never been this jealous to someone else life who have the chance to be with you.

I hope this feeling will soon stop. I can't deal with this anymore, I want to stay in peace and just left these emotions alone now.

-Valle ♡