mamas - s. chuha

two.

it was so hard to sleep last night but as i heard my mom calling me to get up, i realized that i had to go school with my 3 hours of sleep.

"im up," i called out to my mom and stood up to walk to my closet. i wasnt really gonna try today so i just put on the nearest hoodie i could find and some leggings.

i brushed my teeth, noticing how bad my hair looked. i quickly grabbed a scrunchie and put it in a quick bun.

i walked downstairs and sat beside my mom, scrolling through instagram until i had to get onto the bus.

"madison, youre gonna be late for the bus,"

i checked the time and saw there was lots of time left but i listened and walked to the door, putting on my black airforces and taking my bag.

"bye, madison," my mom called out before i walked out.

i smiled back and then said a quick love you before leaving.

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at school, i walked in with my head low, walking directly to where i needed to be. class.

i walked in and sat in my usual seat, basically the middle row and seat.

i put my headphones, playing whatever was trending right now because unfortunately i don't really have any specific music i like listening to.

i sat thinking about everything and how i wish i could go back. never meet him. never let him talk to me or touch me like that.

god, do i wish i could go back.

i hate him so much but i see him every single day, i wish that i could change schools but my mom would need a really valid reason and how am i gonna tell the person who formed my heart, that i let someone break it so easily?

my train of thought continued breaking but then i felt a tap on my shoulder.

though i knew someone tapped me lightly, it felt so aggressive and violent.

i jumped back, being really scared. it felt exactly like i was back in the day it occurred. i looked to see it was just samy.

i hugged him tightly. he laughed a little bit before hugging me back, putting his head in my neck.

i never wanted to leave.

i let go and smiled at him. "sorry," i apologized, still smiling.

"for what?" he looked confused.

i shrugged. he smiled back.

"yo, i gotta go to class, i'm not supposed to be on the sophomore side,"

i giggled, then pushed him a little, "yes go!" i shouted out, as he ran to the door.

i love that goof.

but the thing is, i have no idea if it's more than friends or just friends.

he would never date me. out of everyone? i would be like the last person. kind of sad, i laughed.

i wish we could be more than friends but again, will never happen. :(

-
zee 💋
looks like we found out madison has a crush on samy 🤭