My Social Life

2/25/20

I have that unwanted feeling, like my friends aren't my real friends. Everyone is fake. I just wanna go home.
I'll be happy one minute, then sad the next. I'm tired of pretending to be happy for my friends.
My friend, or mainly my best friend, was my first friend in school and is my best friend. His name is Vincent. I'm worried about our friendship, though. My other friend, who is like a sister, is saying that they're best friends and that they hug all the time and text all the time. I feel like Vincent doesn't wanna be my friend because he used to hug me all the time, but now if I walk past him, I get ignored.
I ask myself the questions: "Did I do something wrong?" "Are we still friends?" "Am I a bad person?"
To me, he is like a brother. I enjoy hanging out with him and when we went to our friends house and went swimming or something like that. I miss him.
He's changed a lot. I feel like that's not him. I miss the old him. I miss his hugs. I miss his voice. I miss everything about him. It's like losing your brother. Gone. Completely. Dead.
I just don't wanna be here at school anymore. I used to love school. I used to have many friends, but then I became one of those people who's just a random person.
I'm not popular. My friend/ sister is just worried about being popular. She is kinda popular. I miss the old her as well. I just wish people didn't change.