I was July 14 and San Diego was in sweltering heat right now, a heat wave too massive had attacked to poor city, but who cares because there's something called air conditioners duh! This particular story is about two people, in one city, in one band, finishing their tour...
My journal October, 3 2010
My closest friend besides Adam, I am totally glad to find that I am still in Adam's band even after his strange disappearance. I find that it is unhealthy for him (though soothing to me) that I am practically the only person that he really talks to besides the band and his family. I just cannot tell him the truth though, I cannot tell him that I love him. If I do I feel that I may be kicked out of the band, or shunned by him, or hell knows what. I don't care of any of that for my affection has become too great. I love him and I will scream it to the rooftops for heaven to hear. I do not care.
I set my journal aside and decided when would I tell the gorgeous man that I have fallen deeply in love with him. I don't think that he could possibly shun me though. He's too, too, social for that. Besides what would he have to be angry about? I guess that I just don't want any awkwardness between us. I know that I can only dream that he would return my affection as greatly as it burns inside of me. Why am I talking so poetically?
So I looked around my house. It wasn't that bad really, it just needed to be painted differently than that god awful yellow. I seriously had to redecorate. Whatever. Though I know that I have to tell Adam immediately or else I would never get my chance. I knew where he would be, usually at that poetry circle that be goes to below the cafe'.
It was night so the heat wave wasn't so bad, but ti was still humid and hot in the air. I brought a miniature fan and a water bottle. I started thinking back on things. You know after Adam's disappearance he acted really strange and I never saw him bothered by the heat. Oh well. Oh god! I should prepare a poem! Totally, he love poetry. I could but a message in it, telling him that I love him! I know that it sounds cheesy... but.... oh just shut up!
I prepared my speech as I drove there. Of course I was being stupid when I was writing the poem as I was driving. I was being stupid thinking that Adam and I would be together, I being stupid when I drove to the poetry place anyway.
Then as I foreshadowed a truck drove into my lane, I didn't speed up not even noticing it while writing: Your voice caresses me through the night, as your hallowed kindness burns into my soul with eternal flame... okay, I know I sound pretty corny right now but hey... give me a break.
As I finished the last line: will you be m-mine? The truck crashed into me. I was actually right in front of the building where Adam was. So close. I felt the impact and then a whiplash. Things had gotten so, so fuzzy and I could almost make out a figure coming from the inky darkness that was surrounding me in a mist. Then the mist disappeared and I saw that everything looked as if I were peering into a clear lake that was slightly tinted purple and had some bubbles.
Wow have I screwed up big time. I heard his voice calling my name, I felt scared yet not scared at the same time. Oh well. I guess that I'm going to die now, sweet, sweet, death can take me away. Hey, who turned off the lights?!
"Gah! What in the hell!" I sat up quickly as I took in my surroundings. All white, white, white. OH HELL NO! Is that Adam over there? By me bed? What the fuck?! I'm usually not one to curse but I'm in shock right now so, that gives me a free pass to do that.I felt sift hands caress my forehead.
"Ssshhhh honey, everything is alright. Tommy I have something to tell you."
"Hm, what is it Addy?" Addy, where did that come from?