Just Like The Wind

Complexed

Have you ever been in love?
Definition of love:
An intense feeling of affection

When I was young and innocent, with no care in the world. I thought love would be the most magical thing. Something easily found in others. But once I turned in my pre-teens and teens. Love became so complex to the point I questioned it. Why was it complicated? How is it so easy for others to love so much but others to love so little?

I never cared for love I thought love was dead and still indeed do. I wanted nothing to do with it, I hated it. That was until I experienced it, now I despise it even more.

Loving someone is one thing, but loving someone who doesn't love you back is just another. The love I feel is just one-sided. The day I confessed and before  that. I felt that utter feeling of doubt that he wouldn't like me back. At that time it was just like before love.

My heart felt like glass being smashed against title flooring.  When the words "I don't think I feel the same", replay in my head.  I used to weep with pain so deep inside me. Yet now I feel numbed. At this point I've been crying for months that the tears have just dried up. Nothing but the numbness of pain I felt since the last day.

Love is complexed.