voices

its only the begining

"The voices in my head. They make me cry at night and wish I was dead. These Voices make me cringe and make me feel like im a terrible person. They've convinced me that my life is just a hell and that nobody would miss me. But the worst part was I believe these voices. Thats why im leaving. Goodbye." Said Amy's note she had left for her Boyfriend, Darren. Darren read this note with tears rolling down his cheeks and frustration in his body. He blamed himself "did i not pay enough attention to her" he asked himself. He ran out of the room and headed home and experienced real pain for the first time.

Thats how Darren's whole life changed. It has been three years since the death of his Girlfriend. In these three years you could have noticed a change in Darren. From being the joy of everyones day to not talking to a single person. From always smiling to always covering his face. Nobody had seen a smile on Darren's face in years. But someone did notice something. His smile went away, but cuts starting appearing. His classmates feared for Darren but didnt know what to do. They tried to reach out to him but in fear of losing another person he loved, he pushed everyone away. All Darren needed was someone that he knew he wouldnt lose, but this was impossible. Why? Because the voices were telling him it wasn't possible to love someone that will stay with you forever.

Darren wished that these voices would go away. But they never did, everyday they grew worse and worse. He had been put on medication for it. But the voices told him to stop. Theyve taken over the Darren everyone once loved and cared for. But as Darren walked home from school one day the voices appeared in his head. "Jump in front of a car" they say. He runs home as he panics. He breathes heavily as the voices get louder. "Jump in front of the car Darren! We said to jump in front of the car". He rushes to unlock his door, he hears a click and runs inside, crying. "Darren! Are you okay sweetie?" His mom asks in fear. "Yes Mum, just a bad thought appeared in my head". She hugs him and runs her fingers through his hair, "you do know you can tell me whats wrong sweetie", Darren looks at her in a weird way "Mum... you wouldnt understand" he says as he walks up stairs to his room. He opens the door then slams it very loud. He leans up against it and slides down. "Why cant I just be a normal 17 year old boy?" He whispers to himself. He gets up and walks slowly over to his bed. He lifts up his pillow and pulls out a knife. "MUM!" He yells as he looks at the knife, she runs up stairs "yes sweetheart?". He hands his mom the kmife and says "will you take this back down stairs? I dont know how it got up here". She walks back down stairs and Darren lays in his bed and blankly stairs at his celing. "Get the pills Darren, consume the pills Darren" he hears repeating in his head over and over. He grabs a hold of his hair and tries not to give in. He couldnt take it, he reached over to his desk and pulled out two containers of pills. He consumes all of them to try and make the voices disappear. "Get the rope Darren. Hang yourself Darren". Darren rushes to get the rope, he gets it and hangs it by his fan, as hes hanging it he passes out.

"Darren? Nurse! I think hes waking up!" His mom yells to the nurses outside of his hospital room. "Where am I?" He says. "Youre in the hospital, you overdosed, are you okay? I know its been a hard life for you, so I scheduled an appointment for you to go to a councilor". Darren sighs and quietly says "Mum, youre just making them mad". His mom leans closer and says "who?". He whispers "The Voices".

After a few days of Suicide Watch, Darren was finally able to go home. He got to his house and instantly went upstairs. He layed down and fell asleep for a while. "Wake up Darren. Please Wake up" he wakes up and notices something different about this voice, it sounded like his Girlfriends. "Amy?! Ive missed you so much!" He yells super loud. "Darren. These voices killed me. Dont let them kill you"

"But if they kill me, wont I be with you?"

"Yes. But im not in the best of places. Im in hell. Im in a place I dont want to be."

"Oh. I wish you were here"

No one replies.

"Kill yourself Darren. Go Die Darren"

"Im not afriad of you, Voices"

"You should be Darren"

A vase falls from his shelf and shatters on the ground.

"You should be Darren"

Darren gets pushed up against the wall and feels like hes being suffocated. 

"You should....."

Then he passes out.

Darren wakes up the next morning and his room is a disaster. He doesnt know what hes going to do about it. These voices are becoming stronger, theyre starting to kill him not just verbally,  but physically. Hes finding it harder to fight. He feels he cant keep going any longer. He goes to a councilor to talk to them. They ask him questions like "how long has this gone on?" "Why do you think this is happening?" But he sits in silence because the voices tell him not to speak. "Darren? We need you to speak". He stares at them all blankly and starts laughing, "are you okay?". He starts laughing more "okay?! Im better than okay, im amazing! I have crazy demons taking over my body and you seriously have the nerve to ask if im okay?!" He picks up a laptop and throws it at the wall "why am I the one these Demons want?! What do they want from me?! I dont have anything! I lost the best thing in my life years ago! I lost Amy!" He thinks for a moment and whispers "Amy...."

He goes home and sits on the couch, and thinks to himself. They wanted Amy. So maybe they want my memories and thoughts of Amy, he gets up and asks his mom to go the store to get him some juice. She gets up and goes to the store. He didnt want juice, he wanted an empty house. "Voices! Demons! What ever you want to be called! Why do you want me?!" Theres a silenece then he hears "Amy..." in a whispery tone. "You have Amy! But why do you want me?!" Theres another silence. "Amy..." he hears again. "TELL ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW YOU DEMON CUNTS!". The demons whisper "You tell us Darren. You tell us". He thinks for a moment. He thinks then whispers "Amy... Amy... Amy..."

"Amy!" He shouts as he runs up stairs and goes under his bed. He pulls out a little red box. On the box it says "Amy". He opens the box and inside is a little doll. "Do you want this doll?"

"Yes. Amy."

"You took my Amy! Im taking yours!" He lit the doll on fire and the Demons scream.

"Kill yourself Darren. Kill yourself Darren. Kill yourself Darren"

Darren couldnt escape this time. He was stuck. The voices took control of him again. He fell to the ground and sat there for a second with his eyes closed. He opened them back up and his eyes were all black. "Im killing myself Demons"

"Good."

Darren walks down stairs and grabs a knife and his mom walks in. "Darren!" She grabs the knife and calls the hospital. "Hello?! Yes! we need an ambulance right now! Something is wrong with my son!"

They got to the hospital and Darren had gone back to normal, yet they still recomended he go to rehab.  He ended up agreeing to go. He went for 4 years and came out and felt better than ever. Little did he know the demons were still following him

"Darren" they whispered