Wasted love

The First Love Always Hits The Hardest

Staying with you was like looking at the sun.
A beautiful pain.

I'm pretty sure I don't love you anymore, but how comes everytime our hands touch my heart skips a beat?

Loving you was dumb, hurtful, self-destructive and useless.
And most of all beautiful.

Falling for you made me realize why it's called falling in love.
Cause when you notice you're falling it's too late to act.
The only thing you can do is hope.
Hope someone catches you.
Or hope that the ground won't be too hard.

Sometimes I ask myself what I did wrong.
When everything I did was loving you and everything I wanted was for you to love me back

Love is like a fire, it burns you up and leaves you behind in the ashes of what once was you.

I knew you didn't loved her. And that's what hurts most. That I wasn't even enough to pretend like you love me.

I still don't know if I'm over you.

I believe that everyone has more than one soul mate on earth.
Nevertheless I haven't found another one after you.
PS: You did - - - - - - - - 22:07 14.07.2018
PPS: He broke you - - 04:32 29.02.2020

I never tried to replace you, cause I know nobody could ever replace you.

When I'm drunk I think of you.
But I also think of you when I'm sober so what's the deal

I know people change when they're in relationships but you promised you wouldn't.

Everyone told me to treat you like you treated me, but how could I do that to someone I love.

Even though it hurt I stood with you, cause I knew you couldn't handle the pain, but I could.

And there I was, drinking, hoping it would numb me.
But the thing about alcohol is, it may trick your mind but it will fuck up your heart.

I lied in bed with tears in my eyes, looking at my screen.

Everytime you fought with her I hoped you would break up with her so that everything would go back to how it was.

I wished I would have known.

I knew you were lying and you knew that I knew.
But that never stopped you, did it?

I wasn't a backup plan. I was nothing.

At least I know I truly loved someone, and someday I'll know how it feels to be truly loved.

I always knew that it would never happen, but that didn't stop me from hoping.

I never understood how people could do such dumb things in the name of love until I fell in love.

It's funny how I can still love you, even though you're not the same person you were before anymore.

You can't see what's happening inside of my head. No one can.

Sometimes I wonder if it's so hard to think about other people, to consider that there is more in this world than just you.

I like your new girlfriend. She's really nice, I hope you really love her this time. Cause I know she does and I don't want her to end like me.

The thing about love, that no one tells you, is that once you loved you change forever, you will never go back to the person you were before you loved.
You'll never be the careless kid you were.

We never had a relationship.
And still, you were my first break up.
PS: You didn't learn from this one so God hit on replay, recognize the pattern when it shows - 04:36 29.02.2020