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Kabubukas ko pa lang ng data ko nang biglang may mag pop-up na chat head.

Zhian:

Say Hi daw Sabi ni facebook HAHAHHA

Luh? Sino naman re?  May cinonfirm ba ako kanina na zhian?

Yvania:

Ayy ahhaha masunurin si kuya

I replied back.

Then he replied

Zhian:
syempre.

Then the conversation go long.. Then agad naman tinanong kuya ko kung sino yun dahil mutual nya.

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“Ahh si zhian? Tropa ko yan schoolmate ko rin may pamasahe yan. HAHAH. ” Agad ko namang nakuha ang ibig sabihin ni kuya  malayo rin kasi ang school nila sa akin.

Kaya naman kailangan nang mamasahe kung gustong dumalaw sa school.

I tried to cut connections yet sya ung nauuna....

Nangangamusta ganon.

Until one day nagulat nalang ako ng biglang nasa school siya kasama ang kuya ko and my friends.

Now he's infront of me asking if he can court me. I see his efforts and sincerity that's why I said yes.

    Weeks had pass september when he ask to court me.

Strings start to get attach, feeling start to get deeper, wala pang kami yet  we have plans.

Parang may kami narin kung mag away, grabe rin siya na mag selos like, hindi mo sya makakausap ng matino the whole day.

Until  the 24th day of October...

We’ve been into a serious misunderstanding.

He talked to me, pumunta sya sa school he said..

“Ayaw ko na.” natigilan ako nang marinig ko iyon. Tila ba binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig.

“sorry, Ayaw ko na masaktan kita” he added.

“Hindi pa daw talaga ako sigurado  sa nararamdaman ko”

He also said...

“Let's just be friends no more no less.”

Sobra akong nasaktan non, like I began to overthink about my self.

Iniisip ko kung gusto nya pa ba yung ex nya? 

Na..  At the very first place hindi ba talaga siya sigurado? Nabigla  lang ba sya?

Days have passed And I don't know why pero tila ba may nagtulak  sa akin at  kanya ako nagchat at nakisuyo about sa sasabihin  sa kuya ko.

  Then the 28th day of  October came.

He Message me.

Tinanong nya ako...

Zhian:
Pwede pa ba ako bumalik?

And I said yes ng walang pag aalinlangan.

Nagalit pa sa akin yung mga friends ko na galit sa kaniya yet wala eh mahal ko.

  We continued our story. Deep connection becomes deeper than before.

November 20 my heart was really overwhealmed..  Tanghali siya gumising lagi kaya ako lagi ang siyang nauuna mag goodmorning yet this day he greeted me a long and sweet goodmorning message.. and  I was really is happy that time.. 

Yet.. 

Who knows..

Afternoon cames up we have a small misunderstanding..

time after that missunderstanding I never received a message from him.. 

The next day November 21 at  8:25am..  I recieved a message..

Zhian:
Aalis ako.

Zhian:
Tigilan mo na ako.

Zhian:
Sorry hindi ko gusto na saktan ka
Siguro hindi pa ito ung time. Na magka girlfriend ako. kalimutan mona ako.

And then he blocked me.

    He leave and transferred into other University. Two months have passed..  And I am still broke.. 

I'm still hoping that he'll comeback..

I was walking  outside my brother's campus gate to fetch him and ask him to come with me shopping.

That's When I saw  him holding a brown envelope  standing near the gate thightly holding the girl's hand  and seems so happy with each other..

  My brother told me everyting. He  knew that, that girl was zhian's five month M.U he just knew it a week  ago.

I was like broken into pieces.

Five month? Ibig sabihin?  He knew that girl way before he knew me? one month before he knew me?

  Sana pala sinunod ko nalang yungmga kaibigan ko.

Sana pala hindi nalang kita hinayaang bumalik.

Sana hindi nalang kita nakilala para hindi ganto kasakit.

At very first place sana hindi kita minahal…

Sana Sinabi mo nalang kaysa yung bigla mo ako iniwan.

Sana hindi ganito kasakit love.

The End.