My Arrangement of Chaos

I'm hiding in a deathly arrangement of laughter and chaos

I blunder through hearts with no shame or delay

I go with a speed reluctant to slow

And I drown

No whiskey tears

No perfect souls exist here

I go down

And down

And

Down

I belong to a world of zero order

A place of misplaced places

A thing that thinks things take things to think

Where chaos paints the prettiest pictures

And no one cares the crimson is blood and the blue is the sky

I'm buried so deeply under this airless expectation

I can't find my way out

I'm lost to an emotion that hates me so very much

But I run from her

I sprint towards the sun and the gorgeous fields

A home of forgiveness and solitary frankness

We are mismatched for sure

A purple dress and an organs sweater

A cat and a dog and a fish and a rat

We have been stitched and switched and thrown mindless from the brink of life

We scramble to find the broken pieces of this world we dreamed up

We desperately chase after the fantasy as it dissipates

Our world is burning to the ground

It is crumbling like stone pathways in an earthquake

Birds flew the mess with shrill cries

We cry too

As we watch our crazy personality accept blow after blow

There is not enough vodka in the world to calm this haze

Not enough security in the public to ease our jagged edges

Not enough hype in the drugs to awake what we once had

London bridges falling down

Our only world is tearing down

London bridges burning down

There goes my smile, lets ditch this town.