voices in my head ((Monoshin))

The voices in my head ((part 1))

-Monoma Pov-   (Age 5)   ((quick note: Toga Himiko is Monoma's sister))

I was outside playing with my sister Himiko, it was going perfectly fine until i heard it..The voices in my head, it didn't bother me at first but they kept talking over and over, i tried to ignore them but whatever i do doesn't work.

 I didn't want to tell my mom or dad about it i mean they wouldn't care one bit about it, school was tomorrow and the voices didn't help one bit, i was already being bullied at school anyways  but i guess i have to make the best of it...    

"Hah! you wanna be a hero?! you won't be a hero with that quirk! you steal quirks only a villain will do that" The boy who often bullied me told me, all i could do was ignore him.. if i do anything to him then everyone will think i'm a villain. I just sighed and walked away from him before i snap at him

"See everyone thinks your a villain"

"Just do it..one cut won't hurt will it?"

...ever single word they say to me hurts..why..why out of all people this happens too me, "WHAT DID I EVER DO WRONG!" i shouted.

"hey..are you ok? i heard you scream" a boy with lavender hair said to me. "O-oh..yeah i-im ok"   i said trying to sound normal "oh,ok then i just heard you scream so i thought you got hurt" the boy said, Wait..why is he talking to me i thought i was a villain that no one wants to talk to? i thought to myself. I looked up to talk to him, again but he seems to already left..

I got up from the ground were i was sitting to look for him, After a few minutes of looking for him he was nowhere to be found  maybe i'll meet him when i get older

-Monoma Pov-  (Age 13)

"You will never be a hero"

"Just give up already" 

I woke slowly opening my eyes to adjust the light. I lazaly got of my bed because the voices rudely interrupted my sleep, i walked to my restroom that was down the hall from my room, i walked into the restroom without knocking i see my sister Himiko brushing her hair "Good morning  Neito" she gave me a creepy grin "Morning" i say in reply

After i got ready i headed to school. of course the way my parents are i had to walk to school, 
when i made it to the middle school i walked all the way to my class. A few minutes passed by then the teacher walked in "Good morning class today we will review what we did yesterday, Graphing Linear Equations and Inequalities" Ugh, again i say to myself.. "Let's start the first thing you do is

arrange the equation so "y" is on the left and everything else on the right.Plot the "y=" line (make it a solid line for y≤ or y≥, and a dashed line for y< or y>)Shade above the line for a "greater than" (y> or y≥) or below the line for a "less than" (y< or y≤)."

-After class-

I got up from my chair and picked up my things then walked out of the classroom for the next class...but as i was walking i heard THEM again the voices...

"Cut,cut,cut,cut" 

"Do it, no one will care..."

"Not even your parents.."

i could take it anymore..instead of going to class i walked to the restroom, i got into one of the bathroom stalls and closed the door behind me, i didn't have any blade with me the only thing charp i had was some scissors "that will do" i thought to myself, i grabbed the scissors out of my bag then... i made a small cut, no blood was coming out so i was fine but that was not enough i need to cut more...

My body is not sensitive so it took alot of pressure to cut myself, still no blood just french scars "maybe i have a blade when i get home" i think to myself. i finally got out of the restroom and walked back to class.

A few hours later, school was finally over. I rushed to get home, when i made it home a walked to my room and closed the door i walked to my desk to see if i had a blade and luckily i do, i grabbed that blade and got a paper towel just incase it gets to messy. I put the blade on my skin and made a small cut,a little bit of blood came out but not much, i stared of easy with some small cuts

"Come on you can do better than that"  

I listened to what the voices said. I cut a bit deeper but still the same size as my last one, i didn't want to hurt myself too much..not yet, i didn't notice that a drip of blood fell onto my carpet "Shit" i cussed to myself, i got the paper towel and cleaned the blood that was on my hand. When i was done cleaning the blood and my arm i went to bed..

Everyday i will do the same thing over and over... One day i signed up for Ua, i wonder how i'm going to hide my cuts now...

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Hello! i hoped you enjoyed  reading this chapter! i'll try to post the next chapter as soon as i can, Also remember  this is just a fanfic don't cut yourself in real life or listen to the voices you hear, Love yourself! -Pulse ultra -

- author-san