My toxic "love" story

First Real Boyfriend

So right now I'm starting straight at the beginning of my first toxic relationship
So this dude's name is James, we met at a summer camp (YMCA) and we immediately hit it off as friends. He was always so sweet and protected me from bully's. One of the things I remember is once our group took a trip to a beach (but it was too cold to swim so we all just chilled on the sand) James and me were near the water, he was trying to teach me how to skip a stone and after a lot of try's I finally did it and he seemed so proud of me (which I was super super happy because of that) we then sat on the sandy beach and talked for a while, then he popped a question I will never forget
"So, do you like me?" I'm pretty sure I turned red. I started to stutter of my words and kept telling him no while he laughed at me panicking
I then calmed down and we both started laughing at what happened
A few minutes after laughing it was time to get back to the camp and get picked up. When we got back we got snacks and sat under a little tent looking wooden building with many black tables under it
We sat down, ate our snacks and started playing some board games, after 30 minutes of playing my mom showed up, we said goodbye, we hugged and I went home
The next day I got up early, got ready, packed my bag and me and my mom drove to camp. When I got there James wasn't there, he hadn't been there all day. I was very lonely that day since I didn't have any other friends then him because all my friends had left camp last year
The next day the same happened, and for the rest of the week he never showed up, I was very upset all week but the next week he showed up
I was filled with joy seeing his face. That's when I realized I did like him, but I didn't tell him
Apparently last week he suddenly got sick and had to stay home, I felt bad for him but he said not to worry and that he was fine now
Anyways the rest of the day was really boring, we didn't really do anything that day cause it rained and we all had to be moved inside. We all just colored or talked, which me James did both
He then popped the question
"Hey, will you be my girlfriend..?" I squealed in joy and kinda yelled yes, he laughed and picked me up in a bride manner. We both laughed and the teachers told him to put me down cause "ThErEs No PTA hErE" we rolled our eyes and all the week we always hide somewhere and held hands, one day this dumb ass teacher that we both hated called ME over to her and gave me lecture about how "We shouldn't hold hands until marriage" (which fucking made me cry since I was very sensitive back then, and she said it really rudely, also I thought then I could never even hug him.) James saw me walk back crying and all he did was tell me "Don't cry you're fine" which hurt but I ignored it. The rest of the day we were both pissed at the teachers and didn't listen to them, I then secretly texted my mom to come pick me up early, she came and when I got into the car I told her what the teacher said and she was PISSED. She then got out of the car, helped me out and we stormed over to the teacher. My mom fucking went off on her. Kept telling her to stop telling me shit that is bullshit, and she just kept saying "Ma'am we don't support those things" after she stopped listening my mom called my (soon to be) stepdad and when he showed up, EVERYONE hid under the wooden tent thing, he walked up to the teacher and told her that she needed to either fix her attitude and stop trying to ruin my poor little brain or he would get her boss and tell him what she told (I was 11 but looked like I was 8) a little girl not to even hug anyone until she was married. The teacher then said "Why should I listen to a black man again?" My mom, dad, me, and James were fucking about to pop off. I then started to cuss at her and told her that she never should of been hired and doesn't deserve kids since she was probably just gonna keep telling them that they shouldn't even have a friend until they're married to someone they probably fucking hate at that point, my mom just stood there in shock, my dad was smirking, all the kids were screaming in aw of how I just did that shit and James was laughing his ass off, her boss then came over after hearing what was going on from a little shit girl who always bully's me, the boss started yelling at me while I started to cry and my dad literally threaten to sue them if they kept this up, they shut up suddenly and apologized to me and my family, the next day that teacher did show up, after 2 weeks of not coming we all figured out she was fired which made me happy as fuck. But after that we just started to get more heat from the teacher when it started to get too much for me and my mom pulled me out of there. Before she did me and James figured out we live really close to each other. After I got pulled out me and James met up with each other in a field that is right in front of my house (he was with his nana because he lived with them since his parents hated him for the things he's done and you'll learn about that soon) we hugged we learned where each other's houses were and we then hung out everyday since then, but, somethings started to happen...