My toxic "love" story

The New Relationship

He started to come over to my house after camp and we'd hang out in this field in front of my house. We'd go to this abandoned shed and at first we'd just talk and cuddle and it was a dream come true to me! He seemed like my prince in armor..
But things started to escalate when we started to kiss, but it wasn't just a little kiss on the lips, it was full out making out with tongue..I never liked doing this but he would kinda force me to do it, and I loved him so I let it happen
After a while he started to get very touchy, while kissing he would have his hands and slide them into my pants, when this first happened I pushed him off and asked him with a shaky voice "What are you doing..?!" He replied with "This is normal in a relationship! Don't worry about it okay?" He knew I had never actually been in a relationship so I believed him, I would let him do it but I'd always hate it, thankfully he didn't go into my underwear, just went into my pants to grab my butt better. I was always very uncomfortable with it because we had just started dating, I was only 12, he was 11 (only a few months younger then me) and I was taught not to do these kind of things until I was much older (no I was not taught to "Not do anything before marriage") After a month of him doing this he god bored and slid his hands into my shirt instead! Now since I was so young I didn't wear bras at the time because I didn't need them. We'd be kissing and suddenly he'd slide his hands into my shirt and grab my chest.
I flinched the first time he did it, and he saw this as a "sensitive" spot when I actually didn't have any at that age :p
He kept doing it and slowly it did become a very sensitive spot, but since I was still pretty young I never got a honey feeling where I wanted more, it just felt kinda good but I never did want more, I wanted it to stop :/
He kept doing this for 2-3 months and then everything switched super quickly, one day he asked if we could go to my house and I said sure not knowing what would come next..
We got in and went to my room, suddenly he pushed me onto the bed and slid his AND my pants off! I squealed and covered up, I kept asking him what he was doing because this was one thing I knew was bad.
He said to be quiet and climbed onto me. He slowly slid mine and his underwear off and pinned me down so I couldn't move..
I wanted to cry but I didn't. I held back my tears..
Thankfully his dumbass didn't know how to have sex, but he did kept humping me and it felt horrible...
This went on for 10-15 minutes. Suddenly we both heard a door in the house open and close. It was my mom! He got off, pulled me up and we both put our clothes back on, we sat on the bed and he held me close to him as my mom found us. I was crying and my mom knew something was up..
She said hi and asked if she could talk to me. James nodded and let me up. Mom pulled me into our spare room and asked me what happened between us. I just kept sobbing and telling her I couldn't tell her or else I'd get punished..
She hugged me close and let me sob to her, she told me to wait in there and walked into my room where James was. She told him that it was time for him to go home and he said "Okay." He walked into the door frame of the spare room I was in and told me "I'll see you tomorrow~" With a wink. He left and I was sobbing so badly that I almost passed out! My mom sat with me as I cried myself to sleep in her arms. I wanted that to be the last thing we did, but sadly. That wasn't the case with James....