Little Things

Chapter 1

I picked up my blade. "One. I'm fat." I flinched as the blade cut lightly into my pale thigh. "Two. I'm ugly. No one likes me." A tiny bit deeper as the blood rushed down my leg. "Three. I'm a slut. No one likes me. At all." This cut was deep, and the next 10 would be just as deep. I was used to this though. I cut cause it felt good, and no one knew.

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"Dallas." Cami, my best friend, knocked on my bathroom door. I muttered a few choice word under my breath and wiped by bloody thigh with a towel.

"One minute!" I tried to sound normal and chirpy.

"What're you doing? Someone's here for you!" Cami banged on the door, moving the locked door knob left and right.

"I'm just uh fixing my hair." I slipped my navy knee-length shorts back on and then buried the ruined towel under empty cans of hair spray, concealer, nail polish remover, you name it in the trash can. Afterwards, I opened the door and smiled at the short girl in front of me.

"So who's at the door?" I wondered with a flick of my braid.

"It's a surprise. Now walk." She pushed on my shoulders, down the stairs.

"Cami I swear to god if its another one of your damn blind dates I'll-" The boy in front of me shut up my jabbering. In fact he stopped me dead in my tracks. I quickly spun on my heels and bee-lined towards the stairs. Something caught my hand though. I immediately knew it was the boy.

"Dallas." He smiled at me and pulled me back to the foyer.

"What Louis." I looked into the blue-grey eyes and stared. "What could you POSSIBLY want." Tears swelled up in my eyes. Cami stood behind me knowingly. Louis had probably told her about our friendship.

"I want to say hi. I want to see you. I want to spend time with my best friend." Louis pulled me into a hug, but I wiggled out of it quickly.

"I AM NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND LOUIS TOMLINSON. I WAS YOUR BEST FRIEND. I'M NOT ANYMORE." I cried and ran upstairs, this time with success.

Downstairs I heard Louis and Cami talking and then there was a knock on my door. "GO AWAY."

"Please Dal. This will take 1 minute. Please. Please." Louis' soft voice begged.

"Fine." I sniffed and set a timer on my phone. It had 60 seconds already counting down. "This better be quick. You have 56 seconds."

"Dallas May O'Connor. I don't really know what I did. I texted you everyday. I called you ever 3 days. You wanted me to try out for x-factor and I'm really sorry that I made it through. If you could please tell me what I did." Louis said.

"You weren't there Louis. You weren't there when he hurt me." I cried and gave in to Louis who was standing with opening arms.

"Who hurt you." A blank expression turned into an angry one on the not so happy boys face.

"Andrew. He-" I inhaled. "He slapped and punched me. He called me fat and slut. Then I felt I had to do something so I had sex with him to make him happy. Then he just left."

Louis was quiet for a minute. "Wh-Why didn't you ever tell me!?"

"Louis I didn't want you to be bothered. You were in the finals. How could I put that stress and pressure on your Lou-Bear!?"

"How couldn't you?! You should know you can tell me anything Dallas. Anything."

"I'm so sorry for not telling you Lou. Do you forgive me for not telling you and being a complete jackass 5 minutes ago?"

"Of course Dal. I love you so much."

"And I love you too Louis." I told him as he pressed his lips to my head.

"Friends?" He asked.

"Best friends." I smiled and wiped my eyes on his sleeve.

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I made myself presentable with the help of foundation, concealer, mascara, hairspray and hair ties, then followed Louis and Cami outside to the One Direction tour bus.

"YOU LIVE ON HERE LOU?!" I asked the grinning boy to my right.

"Yep and you can as well."

"What." My jaw dropped. What had he just said?

"Well I texted Simon and he said that since I had mentioned your name in a few interviews and because I had a girlfriend that you could come on the tour since the fans will know you're just my best friend."

"Oh right Eleanor..." I had yet to meet this girl. I was a bit jealous. Not because I like Louis, no that would be weird, but because they were always spending time together and they had the most perfect pictures together, while theres me and Ben and Jerry's having a threesome on the couch.

"Are you jealous of Eleanor, Dallas?" The boy I recognized as Niall said out the tour bus window.

"No! I'm just thinking aloud... YAY I WANNA COME WAHOO!" I shouted and jumped on Louis who caught me and spun me around in a circle.

"You're going to have so much fun babe." Louis whispered into my ear, making me grin.

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A/N

So I probably won't get any reads but who likes it? I think it's quite good for my first fic and I'm realllllly excited to write this.

(:

Love you my gorgeous platypi!

-Carly