High Dives

Gone

Hey ninjas!! well I decided it would be cool to write another chapter! Thats a good thing right? I don't have a life, so it's okay.

Anyway, this chappie may include triggering content. If you are sensitive to some of the topics, I advise that you skip this chapter.

I love you all, remember that.
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I take back what I said about being happy. It was just false joy, I know that now. A couple weeks after that night, I got really bad again. Levi and I got into a bad fight, which caused me to leave and stay with Armin like I used to. He took care for me and helped me. But he did have to go to work eventually and leave me alone. Oh, I almost forgot; I got fired for being high at work.

Yeah... I'm going downhill again.

Right now I'm sitting in the bathroom, only wanting to get high. I can't though; I used up all my dope. I started to remember Levi again... It's what I've been trying to escape this whole time.

*flashback*

"That's it, I'm sick of all your shit Eren!!" Levi screamed at me for getting high.. again behind his back. He tried to help me, he did everything he could. When he went to work, I would shoot up in the bathroom. I went for Heroin not too long after my relapse. "Levi, I'm sorry! Please, don't make me leave!" I grabbed his arm, but he shoved me back. "Get out before I call the cops." My eyes went wide and my breath caught in my throat.

He wouldn't do that, would he? "Levi... don't do this." I cried. He wouldn't give in, he pulled out is phone. "I'm not joking Jaeger. Get the fuck out of my house!!!" I gasped, but nodded and gathered my stuff before leaving. I left my heart there too.

*end flashback*

"STOP STOP STOP!!!" I pulled my hair and banged my head against the wall. "Why do you haunt me?!" I sobbed as I leaned against the wall. I couldn't take it anymore; I had reached rock bottom. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a steak knife.

You're gone and I gotta stay High all the time to keep you off mind...

I positioned it at my wrist vertically. Taking a deep breath, I pressed down on my skin.

Spend my days locked in haze, trying to forget your face. Gotta stay High all my life to forget I'm missing you.

I dragged it down about four inches. Just as the blood started to gush out, Armin came in. "Eren! I'm home!" I gasped in panic. "Shit!" Armin ran to the kitchen to see blood all over the kitchen floor. "Oh my god.." He grabbed a bunch of paper towels and held it to my arm. I sobbed harder. "Just let me die... I can't do this anymore Armin..." He picked me up and took me to his car, calling someone as he drove me to what I could guess was the hospital.

"Hey babe," It was Erwin he called. "I'm taking Eren to the hospital, I'll tell you what happened later. Just meet me there. Bye." He hung up and glanced at me. "Press the paper towels to the cut Eren." I shook my head "No, I want to die.." He drove a little faster. Before I passed out, we got to the hospital and they had just put me on a gurney when I became unconscious.
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Sorry this one was shorter than the other, but I just needed to write this.

The song is called Habits, I forget who sang it. Sorry.