Tension | Hyunsung ✓

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Was it not obvious why Hyunjin was angry? It was because he was anxious. He didn't want to carry Jisung to the infirmary ever again. He didn't want Jisung to be hurt again.

However, no matter how angry he was, he couldn't leave Jisung. He knew how clumsy the smaller guy was and his ability to be injured no matter where he was. He had said he would be Jisung's friend but he didn't think becoming his friend would lead him to worry about him all the time.

Did Sae Hee abandoned Jisung because of this? Did she set herself free from the constant worrying and restlessness? Was that why she looked very rigid when he told her Jisung was in the infirmary? No, she probably see all his injuries as something normal. She probably didn't feel as concerned as he was and she probably just went there to scold him.

Sae Hee had never been on edge when it come to Jisung until...until they broke up because Hyunjin couldn't stop looking at Jisung's way.

Her last word before their break up wasn't "I hate you" it was "get a grip of yourself" she spited it with so much hatred because she hated dishonest people.

Hyunjin laughed, Sae Hee must had found it funny. She was mature for her age, she was unlike other girls her age. She must had laughed while watching Hyunjin and Jisung who kept fighting like children and found it ridiculous. That's why she just left everything. "She's malicious", Hyunjin spat but now he couldn't do anything about it. Even if he regretted befriending Jisung, he couldn't stop now.

They continued, the both of them continued living like this for 8 years. Hyunjin constantly worrying about Jisung and being reminded of how Sae Hee might have laughed at his cowardness of facing his own feeling.

The day Hyunjin realized he had a feeling for Jisung was the day Jisung almost drowned himself, the day he asked Sae Hee out and the day he ruined Jisung's friendship with Sae Hee. It was catastrophic.

Hyunjin knew nothing of the future but he knew he would never be able to face himself nor Jisung but he was wrong. He did it. He faced it.

—knock

Hyunjin raised his head, he had been indulging himself with writing a letter. A hand written letter he didn't know he would be writing. Writing a letter might seemed a bit ancient nowadays but it put his mind at rest. He had been doing it for quite a while the time he hadn't been with Jisung. It was the only way to cope up with the absence of Jisung.

"What are you doing?", Jisung's head peeked out of the door gap, he had the smile Hyunjin adored to see adorned on his lips. What could Jisung be doing at his room around this time? He peeked out the clock, 11:00 pm. "Why are you here so late?"

"The nation team try out is tomorrow right?", Hyunjin nodded, the race was set tomorrow. "Why?"

Jisung walked around Hyunjin's coffee table before he reached for the swimming goggle he gave to Hyunjin before. Hyunjin watched his movent, curious of what he wanted to do. Jisung grabbed the goggle and harshly threw it into the dustbin.

Hyunjin was shocked. His competition was tomorrow but Jisung did something so heartbreaking right in front of him. Was Jisung angry at him? If so, what did he do?

—flick!

The pain stinging on Hyunjin's forehead brought him.back to reality. His emotion must had been shown on his face, he was embarrassed. He gave away his thought so easily. "You're overthinking again"

"Don't worry. I'm not angry", he pulled out another goggle out of his bag and tugged Hyunjin's hand, putting it on his palm. "Use this."

Hyunjin held the goggle tightly, "this?"

"Those old pair of goggle was given by me when I was foolish and ignorant about how you really were", Hyunjin's face turned red, Jisung was saying 'back then I didn't know you liked me'.

"This one I give you as your loved one", Jisung closed Hyunjin's palm with his before pushing Hyunjin's arm to his chest. "Keep it"

"Well, I'm going now", Jisung merely came to say 'goodluck' to Hyunjin but he didn't need to be that harsh. Hyunjin laughed uncontrollably before he stood up and picked up his old pair of goggle from the dustbin. He dusted off some dirt in it and sighed, even if it was a pair of old goggles, even if it was given by the Jisung who knew nothing back then he still cherished it.

Hyunjin sat back down on his chair, he picked up his letter and read where he left off. He had to continue writing. There was so much to say in his letter and so much questions to be written.

This year many things have changed— the way people around me act, the way I think, the way he thinks, the way we act. Now we learn to be more understanding and cherish what we have.

He dropped the pen, the scent of freshly used ink was pungent on the piece of paper which he folded nicely and placed inside a blue envelope— then placed inside a box, piled with letters he would one day open again had he been in disdain or in happy moments.

A grin on his face which he couldn't content anymore, his blood was boiling not from anger but excitement. He not only loved Jisung, he loved swimming, the water, the people, his teammates, everything involved with him right now.

Jisung who had left Hyunjin dorm walked to his room with a satisfied grin. He had not worry about being too harsh when he threw the goggle away. He knew Hyunjin would picked it up later, he just wanted to give a sense of 'defeated' to Hyunjin and how bad being dejected was. He was a bit conceited at this point but it was the truth, he had a big impact on Hyunjin.

He knew Hyunjin would be too excited to sleep especially for the competition tomorrow. He wanted Hyunjin to grip that feeling of defeat and remember, so, he would do his best tomorrow. After all, hadn't Hyunjin did that before? Hiding his sport shoe just before the competition start just to make him feel angry enough to beat the other team he went against.

Well— seemed like cheering Hyunjin wasn't the only reason he did. Maybe he had his little revenge.

He wondered what he should give to Hyunjin if he was scouted to be in the national team later. He couldn't buy Hyunjin another goggle and he didn't have much money to buy expensive stuff.

What do people buy for the person they love- love. "Am I in love with Hyunjin?", The question which Na-Eun replied with a "how about you try kissing him and ask yourself?"

"You had never kissed him, did you?", It was one of the things they talked about in their conversation when Jisung asked to meet her. Thinking back about it, he was really shy when Na-Eun asked him the sudden question. He had a hard time conversing with her. "Just try kissing him. He will be delighted about it and you don't loss anything"

Jisung's mind wandered until he arrived inside his room and rolled on his bed after throwing his crutches away. "Kiss..."
It won't hurt to try.

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Welcome to another series of 'I don't know what I write I just follow my fingers'. But doesn't the chapter feel kind of different 🤔 sometimes what I write can differ base on what I do , read or watch on the day. Maybe just me -hunny