Changes❣️

Chapter 1

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When you're best friend stops talking to you, the world changes

When you're other best friend moves away, the world changes

When you're parents don't talk to you anymore the world changes

When two of the group members leave the squad, the world changes

When the squad breaks into pieces, the world changes

When will it stop? When will everything stop changing? Because, I followed you this has happened.

Dear Lucas,

Luke, hi! This is your friend, best friend, Charlotte, and I need to tell you something. Very important! I usually don't write you a letter, but I can't text you this.

I need to list some stuff that has happened to me, that you probably haven't noticed some of them. My best friend, Layla has stopped talking to me.

My other best friend, Maria has moved away, and hasn't texted me since, but she has let me know something, that I am trash.

My parents stopped talking to me, they make me get my own food myself.

Our whole squad is messed up. All because of me. And all because I have followed you. I am not blaming you. But I want to know when will everything stop? When Will I stop losing when I take a step behind you? Get your act together Lucas, you're doing stuff to them, that make them hate me. Or, they hate you. Why? I don't know. But I need to know why! My life is breaking. Because I'm losing, and I AM going to bring you down with me once I fall into a hole I won't be able to get out of. You will suffer with me, because I pulled you down. So? Come on, Lucas. Get you're damn life straight tell me all that stupid stuff you hide from me. Goodbye Lucas

-Char

Yes that was very rude. Very very rude to say to you're very loyal and good friend. You know sometimes, you need to be rude to somebody when you are losing pretty bad. Life hurts, friends hurt, and yes, family hurts a lot. They drive you nuts as the days go by, and you can't speak up, because you are scared. You are scared of the way you feel, and before you know it, they stop talking to you. They stop doing your laundry, cleaning up your room, helping you with your homework, and they even stop making you food. As a thirteen year old, I have experienced that, all those steps, and I have no idea how to cook. I tried making an omelet, I burnt my hand, and my parents didn't take me to the doctor. Are they teaching me a lesson? For no reason? I tried to make pasta, but I spilled the water on me, so I guess now I just go buy salsa and chips. I just suck on the salsa in the bed, and munch on the chips. Life hurts, because family and friends hurt. Friends hurt because they stop talking to you, and they fight over you in bad ways. I have also gone through it. They say trash behind my back, but I don't know the reason. What have I done to them? I have cared for them, helped them, loved them in every way I can. What have I missed? What have I not shown toward them? Am I really that horrible? At least, tell me why, because it pains when you don't know why. I rather know why then to not know why and get dragged down mentally. There are some other stuff in life that hurt, like homework and projects. Yeah, it sounds babyish, but I never have a partner, and it's like the whole school has turned on me. They laugh when I turn in my paper, they giggle when I present, they walk pass me when I stand by my project. They pour milk on me at lunch, and nobody is there to stop me or at least stand up for me. I just silently walk away to the bathroom trying to clean myself.

My parents have stopped giving me money, so now I can't really eat anything at home or at school. It's so hard to find a job. I have probably applied to so many different places to work at such as cleaning at Jamba Juice, working as a front desk at Starbucks and SafeWay. However, they just turn me down, saying that I will probably be too irresponsible and too young. Lot of fourteen and fifteen year olds are getting jobs to earn money to buy their own life's necessities and the new fashion. They buy water, food, clothes, and they go far too much on clothes. They buy jean jackets, jean shorts, jean rompers, normal rompers, ripped jeans, mini skirts, cool shirts, crop tops, shoulder showing shirts, you name it. I really crave for the job, because I need the money for food, and water. Since these age groups have already been on top of their game, I am forced to sit out and just watch them enter the store. The jobs are taken, and there is no opening for me whatsoever.

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