When I get into my car I did a lot of thinking why doesn't a lot of people go to meadows. It is very pretty and peaceful. It is a good place to think about life like...what to do next or how your going to do it. I am still in the car crying. Wondering what my grandma is going to say when I get expelled. I am adopted, but the parents that live with me now are Dead. So I live with my mom that is dead's grandma. My life is like a puzzle it can be difficult and it can be easy. But ever since my parents died everything has been difficult. I loved them so much even though they were not my real parents. I never met my real parents before. I wounder what the look like. But anyway I live in calafornia and they live in {not known} I never knew where my real parents lived. Or how old was I went I got adopted. You can't change life but life can always changes you. Sometimes I keep saying that to my self, What does that mean? My grandma told me that when I was about 6 or 7. And I still remember that. To remember that it must mean something very important. When I get to the Meadow I get out of my car past the pond and just run into the flowers because every time I jump and skip in the flowers I love smelling that flower sent. And feeling a fresh breeze. Or just feeling free. I lay down In the flowers just old in these pretty pink flowers because every time I see the pink flowers I think of love. It is a really pretty flower. I just imagine the whole intire Meadow filled with these pink flowers. I fell asleep dreaming about this special guy there next to me and we are giggling together he was so sweet such a gentleman and he was a hansome charming guy. That was probably the best dream ever. When I woke up it was night. Oh no I better go home. My grandma is probably worried sick about me. I got in my car and drove home. When I got home my grandma was crying and the police were at my house I did not know what was happening. My grandma went up to me and hugged me and said "thank god your ok". "Of course I am why". "You weren't home for at least 12 hours I called you like 100 times you never answered" said grandma. "Oh sorry I fell asleep in the Meadow because it was so peaceful". "Well you scared me so much I called the police for nothing," said grandma. "I am so sorry." then I run to my room crying. I did not mean to scare my grandma to call the police. It is just I fell asleep in the Meadow dreaming peacefully. I wish I could have nice dream again. It feels like I can create anything in my dreams. I can not cry but I can find a charming guy in my dream. In my dreams you can do anything. It feels like I'm obsessed with my wonderful dream now I really want it to come true. It feels like my life would be so much better with that dream in it. I just want to dream that dream over and over again. But when I fell asleep I did not because school was the next day. So I had a nightmare about Matt, Gabby, and Isabela. That was my worst dream ever. Then suddenly when I woke up it was time to go to school. That is probably dreamed about that scary dream. It was because I had school today and I am nervous about either getting expelled or just about what Matt, or Gabby, or the meanest girl in school Isabela. Or just maybe BOTH. When I went down stairs my grandma said here is your lunch. I said can you home school me, please, please, please. Why? Said grandma. I hesitated, I did not know what to do I did not want to tell her what happened at school. She would get over protective so I just said the first thing that was in my mine. "Because I hate getting up so early and I want to spend more quality time with you grandma." "Well anyway have to go grandma love you bye". When I got in my car I kept saying to my self and praying to god that today is going to be a Better day, a Great day, a New day.
