CHAPTER 1............. not a true story!
Out With My Pain, In With Their Suffering
Dear Mom and Dad,
I love you and I hate to say bye this way,.... but I just couldn't live like this anymore. Please tell Bailey she was the most amazing friend in the world, and not to be mad or upset with her self she was always there for me, this is the last time you will hear from me so I love you very much, good bye <3
Sincerely, Your daughter Jade
I stop writing on the folded piece of old paper, then lied it on the side of the tub. I reached for the razor that was to my right, I held it to my wrist. As I began to slowly cut into the flesh of my skin I could feel the agonizing pain strike up my fore arm, halfway done I felt the blood begin to drain out of the wound, I didn't care though I kept going pushing the blade farther and farther in.
I could feel the blood draining out of my body and onto the cold hard floor, I lay there staring blankly at the gushing wound. After 10 minutes I had noticed that I haden't cut deep enough, I knew what I had to do. I had slowly get up and walked over to the tub and turned the water on. With my uncut hand I went over to get the bloody razor that lied on the grond were I was sitting, I carefully bent down to grab it once it was in my hand I went back over to the tub. I step into the cold water and began to cut in again, cutting deeper I could feel the pop of my veins under the newly sharpened blade. I can see the water around me turning red, and my vision going blurry
As my body bleads out I slide my whole body and my head into the cold water, I open my eyes to see my last breaths bubbling up to the surface of the water. My vision goes black and I slowly feel my self drifting off, as I let out my last breath I could feel my body quickly being dragged out of the cold bloody water, into the arms of my mother, I watched my body as my mother did CPR. It was to late, my spiritual body had already gone and now I am watching my empty corpse lying there on the bathroom floor.
I can hear the foot steps of the paramedics rushing up the stairs to try to save my lifeless body. I try to speak to them and no one can see or hear me. Now I know that I have gone on I looked down at my wrist and all the wounds are gone and scars have all disappeared. I was a whole new different person in my new life.
I watched the paramedics take away my bloody body on the gurney, but my attention quickly changed to the sight of my mother walking over to the tub, as I watched her start to read the note, tears were pouring down her face and smacking the blood covered floor. I watched her fall to her knees in the pain of reading the last words of her daughter. She quickly stands up and rushes back down the stairs as my spirit fallows her.
I watch her fiercely run out the door and I see her freeze to the sight of my body getting put into a black body bag. My father quickly drives into the drive way without parking and runs to my mothers side, I watch them crying in despair as they walked back to the car and fallow the ambulance back to the hospital, I get into the car with them.
My father races down the road to catch up with the ambulance, as they arive to the ridge veiw hospital.
They race in to the front desk as the first responders rush my lifeless body to the ER to try to revive my me, I feel so guilty to cause them so much pain but I was not happy with my life.
As my parents sit in the waiting room a nurse comes out and tells them that there daughter didn't make it, the nurse ask them if they would like to have a moment to be with there daughter for the last time.
I watch the nurse write down my time of death..... 11:07 pm.
The front doors fly open as I see my best friend Bailey rushing to the front desk and see my parent walk out of the ER doors. I watch her as she runs over to them and breaks down into tears, a nurse from behind the desk takes them into another room to have a seat with the rest of her my family.
