Touring Around My Heart **ON HOLD**

So Close and Goodbyes

Hello people everywhere and anywhere so this is our new chapter and it will be happy and a bit sad but near the end I pretty sure you’ll like… Hopefully. Okay this chapter has a lot of trigger warnings and I would also like to clear something up before you start reading this. I am totally against self-harming I don’t like when people do it and I wish people wouldn’t do it because you matter and everyone matter’s so if you do self-harm please don’t you have a life and you matter. And also Jon the manager of BVB does not have these beliefs and don’t hate on him for my writing it is just a story that is not real or will ever be real.  

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Shawna P.O.V

Jon. Jon was in the door way of the bus watching Andy and I, we both drop our hands from each other’s waists.

“What’s going on here?” Jon ask us. I look between us already knowing what Andy might say. He might say something to do with us being a couple…

“Since you’re here Jon there is something I have to tell you. I think I-” Andy was about to say before I pinched his side.

“What Andy is trying to say is he and Juliet broke up and I was just out here comforting him. That’s all Jon. There isn’t anything you need to worry about.” I quickly say.

“Okay… Andy go on the bus and give Shawna and I minute alone please.” Jon ask not looking at me. I have a bad feeling about this again.

“Yeah sure.” Andy says looking between Jon and I. He gives my hand a small squeeze and let’s go. I hadn’t realized he had it held it.      

Once Andy walks away from me and goes over to Jon, Jon pats him on the back and whispers something to him. Jon steps off the bus and walks over to me and folds his arms over his chest, I do the same thing to him.

“Jon, you know that won’t work on me. Like you’ve said before I’m staberen and no use trying to get me to back down from anything. So just cut the crap and tell me what’s up.”

“I’m sorry Shawna. I really am. But you have to leave.”

 “What?!”

“You have been out of control. Starting pranks, getting Taylor and Max into even more trouble.” I gave him a confused look making it look like I have no idea what he is talking about. “I know that Max and Taylor in the storage room and them in the bunks this morning. Plus I thought you said you stopped!?” Jon goes in his pocket and pulls out my bled.

“I have never self-harmed my entire life! And I never will!”

“Then who’s are these?!” I can’t tell him those are Taylor’s he will kick her off tour and right now she’s happy and I can’t do that to her. And besides one of those are mine. The thing about my godfather as much as I love him and as he is the manager of a band who wants self-harming to stop he hates it with a passion. Yes I don’t like when people do it but I think skin is for bracelet’s and not for cutting and I want to help them get over but Jon isn’t as understanding as me. I have no choice but to tell him.

“Okay fine yes those are mine. A bunch of kids beat me up the last day of school and threw me a razor and told me just to end it.” I said.

“Shawna I’m sorry I didn’t know. But I don’t know what to do. Okay fine I have an idea, you can stay but if anything else happens under your watch your off the tour and going home to your dad.”