𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚 𝒉𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒚 , 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆𝒔𝒔

10.

           "Mikaela stop it!" I whined, slightly amused at her attempt of coaxing me back into bed with her.
        "Baby, you know damn well you want to be here more than I want you to right now." she says, the sleepy raspiness of her voice coming through.
    
      I sighed, as she leaned down and pressed her lips into mine. The softness of her hair disappearing as soon as her curls get tangled up in my hands, a moment of pure euphoria that I didn't want to end. Letting out a soft moan as she slides her hands up the fabric of my shirt, she breaks contact and looks up at me with her dumbass smile.
 
     "Well that's too bad you have to get ready to leave" she says sarcastically, "better get ready before you're late, princess."

     I let out a scoff as a pout overcomes my features at her teasing.
    
   "You're annoying, this is the last time I'm staying over because now you don't know how to act."  I said, crossing my arms.

      "Aw, that's adorable you don't think you're gonna end up here practically begging me to- " she says until I cut her off.

       "Baby, technically, you were the one that called me over saying you wanted - no, "needed me" were your exact words - but continue." I retorted back to her.

    "And what if I didn't have to do that?" she replied back, shyly, as she carefully ran her hands through my hair.
    
    "And what do you mean by that?" I asked her, tracing her chest with my fingers while I laid my head on top of her shoulder.
      
    She pulls her hand from my hair as she tilts my jaw up, looking at her face to face.
  
    "Move in with me," she says, "I don't want to do the middle of the night texts to let you know when you can come over or that feeling in the morning I get when I have to let you go so soon...I want the whole damn thing."
    
    Smiling at her, I lean up and begin to plant individual kisses all over her face as she scrunches up her nose and laughs.
    
       "Am I supposed to take that as a yes?" she asks.
  
    "Of course, I want to be here, everyday and night, as long as it's with you." I tell her.

Everything about the way I used to know her seems different now.

Sometimes I wonder if maybe I wasn't enough for her to realize that what we had seemed worth it. That maybe if I had just lived up to the promise of wanting to be near her everyday because I was in love with her; that maybe I could have stopped what happened between her and Amandla while she left for tour.

Sage makes me feel safe, but sometimes I feel like I can't fully look her in the eye without wanting her to be someone else. To be Mikaela, at least. Am I wrong for that? Wanting back a person that I was in love with despite the way everything happened, even if the person in front of me now never hurt me like her?

       Don't get me wrong, with Sage, I feel lighter than I have before. There was never a point with her where I felt guilty for doing what I needed for myself to be happy. Sage has been so supportive and understanding with all of this within the time I've known her, she always takes the time to be attentive and remind me that I'm more than what people paint out.

    At times it even makes me forget the short amount of time we've known each other because she has this effect on me to constantly feel full of love and to be able to feel love reciprocated.

Since the TMZ article went public, my publicist has been on my ass about not having any contact with Mikaela. Especially after that comment I pulled on her post. What a fucking whirlwind that was.

       I glanced down at my phone, huffing loudly when I seen another tagged article on my timeline. All my pent up frustration got to me as I threw my phone onto the bed, raising my palm to rest against my forehead as I let out a long sigh.

    I wanted to shout and cry, to destroy every fucking thing in this room if I had to hear another gossip column give their unsolicited opinion on my relationships.

   "I would ask what your phone did to you to deserve that but I'm also trying to deflect getting it thrown at me too." Sage said, as she let out a small laugh to lighten up my mood. She succeeded, feeling my heart flutter a bit at the sound of her voice.

    See? Complicated.

     I groaned softly, thinking about how much of a mess my emotions are at this moment.

     "Hey, none of that, okay? Baby, come here, it's gonna be okay." she told me while pulling me into a small embrace, my tears staining her shirt as I let out small sobs.

      "I'm really sorry for putting you in this situation, you deserve so much more, you know that?" I said, my words being muffled in between my crying.

       "Are you kidding? Regardless of whatever is happening, I wouldn't ever regret standing by your side, we're in this together," she said, "It amazes me sometimes that you don't really see the hold you have over me, you're not getting rid of me anytime soon I hope you know."

        I let out a soft laugh, "I don't think that seems like a problem for me." I position myself up to the point where I'm at full eye level with her, "I wanna say thank you, I haven't felt this safe in awhile, and it's all you. It still shocks me that out of everyone, you chose me to love."

        I immediately avoid eye contact, fiddling with my fingers in my lap. I know she won't ridicule me for saying what I just said, but there's still that element of shyness I get from being around her and the fear that maybe she'll change her mind about who I am.

          The scattering in my head freezes when I feel her hands cup my face, lifting it up so I can look at her face to face. The feeling of her thumbing rubbing softly against my skin as a soft reassurance, makes me let out a soft sigh.

   She gives me a soft smile, taking a quick glance between my eyes and my lips; awaiting a small confirmation. I give her a quick nod, allowing her to lean in as she softly plants a small kiss against my lips. The both of us move in synch with the other, feeling complete like this should've been how it always was.

       And for a moment, I believe that I wouldn't ever want to spend another moment of my life without her in it.

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A/N
I'm really sorry if this
wasn't that great + short
but I really wanted to
get a chapter out for
you guys & show both sides of
the domesticity between
Talia & both Mikaela + Sage.
let me know what u thought <3